Moments of Life

New year resolutions!!!

2012-01-02T01:09:00.001+08:00

Before anything, HAPPY 2012 (:

Everyone is thinking of new year resolutions and I realize I have a whole list of it. And this time, blogging it hopefully will remind me that I have set them. Haha.

Here comes the list:

Be more hardworking to achieve better complexion. Haha

Settle my studies and do well for the first year of uni

Going out with the girls (Joanne youjing Miaoling Eunice tangge)once a month (:

Do a closet switch with someone!!! Eunice Choy Miaoling. Whoever! Haha

Continue loving my boyfriend (: knowing he will too (;

Oh, most importantly eat more vegetables not to grow taller. But for a healthier lifestyle. Plus more fruits as well. For a better future (:

Oh, go overseas with friends (: be if Japan, Taiwan, Australia. Just wanna enjoy (:

I guess the list isn't very long heh. Haha.

Here wishing each and everyone a very happy new year. May u fulfilled what h wanted to do in 2011. If didn't, keep them in mind for 2012 and try harder

When there is a goal. I will start heading towards it. Might take a log longer than expected. But at least u weren't at the original spot but somewhere nearer to it (:

Love everyone (:

but u the most. (: 1 more day to 3yrs and 1mth. How fast time passed. Haha. ❤

Finally the app is here~~

2011-12-29T23:38:00.001+08:00

Finally blogger app. Can save me alot if trouble heh.

Time flies, I am having prelims in February. Then major exams in may. Hai.

Haven been spending time wisely in 2011 and guess what is another week to 2012. Getting older, bt maturity and spending time purposefully isn't improving. ): time to really grow up ya?

3yrs and 27 days. Hw time flies. Always constantly loving you (:

2011-08-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

After reading ben's post I just feel like updating. Haha

Hmm... Met up with Jem hardy shuyi ben and weijie recently. Went timbre. First time there bt the experience is just unique I guess. Hahas.

Have been chatting with Joanne yang more than I ever did in Singapore. I guess the saying 'treasure only when is gone' is pretty true har. Lol. She is currently doing fine as what I heard but I really hope all is well for her ((:

Choy is still the same. Always the ah girl to me. But I know she has grown, independent and more decisive. People all grow, it just depends whether u become the better or worse I guess ((:

Have been nuaing at home recently. Just dun feel like doing anything rather sleep or just ly on sofa. Unless I am fetch around. Haha I guess tis is the way when ur frens start getting their license n u are just too lazy to travel eh.

Oh, heard from ben jiachuan actually ask abt me. Appreciate it alot.... ((: realized I totally lost contact with all jc frens. Hmm. guess we werent that close aft all ar....

Has been missing out many things I know. And sch is starting for me Le. I am suppose to look forward to it. I do honestly. Bt knowing I am all alone and no frens just honestly sucks. Just like that day went to the clubs and society open house all alone. Nt knowing where to go. Walking round the same place back and forth. Honestly makes me feel like a super loner plus idiot. I didn't attend orientation. Did nth. Bt I tell myself I dun mind. As I am just leaving for work aft lessons but apparently I am not used to it. I just really dun like the feeling.

Really missed the old times. With frens going to the same sch, having companions and doing what the norm is doing. But I can no longer lead the norm life like attending govern unis eh... I am already taking a different route from the rest. Hw different I have no idea. Bt I know it wouldnt be easy it wouldn't be like previous times. This time I have to do it alone.

I know my girlfriends are always there for me as well as the guys. That's why these people are friends for life. No matter how busy or how hectic our lives are, messages and forms of contact is still there to support one another. Everyone is taking their own paths towards their future. Yet, there is always a merging point somewhere where we will all gather got one another.

Really treasure each and every friend I have.

As for myself, I start telling myself that

Dreams will always remain as it is if I dun do anything about it
Dreams only happens when I am asleep, the rest is reality.
Dreams turn into goals once the first step is taken.

For a better future, for me, family and friends.

CHEERS ((:

2011-07-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

OKAY. PISSED OFF AND FUCKED UP POST ENDED. NOW GETTING BACK MY 'BEFORE LECTURE' MOOD TO CONT WHAT I WANTED TO DO. (:

LET'S SEE.... START SCHOOL ON 22 AUG.

STOP WORKING OFFICIALLY AT 30 JULY (which i suppose i will still go back)

SO GOING TO PACK MY AUG UNTIL I START SCHOOL. GONNA KEEP MYSELF OCCUPIED BUSY AND EVERYTHING. DO THINGS I REALLY WANTED TO DO. NOT LISTENING TO ANYONE. HAHAS.

LET'S SEE.

1 UOL ORIENTATION

2 GOING MSIA TO PLAY GOLF

3 CELEBRATE SHUYI'S BIRTHDAY IF POSSIBLE

4 FIND SHUZHEN IF POSSIBLE

5 BBQ + LAST MIN PREPARATION FOR 'HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL'

6 OFFICE PRAYERS

7 BOYFRIEND DAY ((:

8 HMM.... FIND SOMEONE TO GO OUT WITH

9 ANOTHER GOLF GAME??!! (:

10 SHOP FOR STATIONERY (:

11 ANOTHER DAY OUT ? (:

12 GOLF PRACTICE PLUS K PLS!!!!

13 USS ANYONE?!?!?!

14 BOYFRIEND DAY ((:

15 CONFIRM UNI STUFF ARE READY

16 UOL CAMP / LAST GAME OF GOLD IN MSIA ((:

17 UOL CAMP / MEET UP (:

18 UOL CAMP / MEET UP (:

19 GOLF PRACTICE (:

20 FINAL FINAL PREP

21 BOYFRIEND DAY ((:

22 SCHOOL STARTS

23 SCHHOL STARTS - OFFICIALLY. HAHA

OKAY. packed (: now who are the people I want to meet. hehe

the must meets

THE GUYS... will be on a sat/fri night (:

CHARMAINE CHOY

THE GIRLS... most prob is wkend. coz all schooling ):

if possible

PEILONG

SHUZHEN

MR PEH (dinner with WeiJie and Ben)

CSS TEACHERS (dinner with the guys and girls)

oh, plus some things I want to do before I start school

- clubbing??? hehe (once will be enough)

- weekly run! or daily if possible. hehe

- dye my hair. with the liese i bought from japan!

- trim the ends. remove split ends.

- get a few more clothes??? hehe

not forgetting... some things that I need suggestions for.

1. what cca(sth similar) should i join in SIM???

2. should i join the UOL council???

3. second hand books a good choice?

4. become a guai kia and home after school?

5. no tutorials for my course. any help?

6. my new phone!!!! HTC? den get iPhone 3GS from cousin?

that's all I have for now. hahhas

love each and everyone around me (: but you more. haha.

good night

2011-07-20T22:49:00.002+08:00

tired of everything's going on. you are there lecturing me and everything. constantly telling me that my things are damn messy and not up to your standard and everything. but honestly, put it very very rudely. f off. come on, your things are not that perfect either. stop implementing your ways into things people do. sometimes, i honestly think that all you do is complain about how inefficient and not up to standard we are. but ask yourself, are you really that good? the methods you suggest are the best ways till other suggestions dun have to be even considered. seriously.

crap and f-ing thing aside. finally i get my holiday i suppose. but what's the point, everyone's starting school. joanne's left. guys in army. apparently the break will just be alone right? crap. had so many nice things to talk about until the f-ing lecture start. now i'm totally moodless.

worse. sister is going to kb nxt. FML!

2011-07-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

Cleared my license ((: FINALLY :D

anyway, was looking at GMarket and just bought 1 top and 1 dress. The best thing is, I dun even have to get out of my bed. Just use e-nets. haha.

I worry for what's in my account now. muahahaha.

Hope the things sent will not look too bad har. ahaha

Love you the most (: honestly, sincerely, willingly ((:

2011-06-28T15:38:00.003+08:00

yeah, i am promoted (: hehe.

anyway, had a stupid thought ytd. one that i should not have thought of. and this decision had also made me feel super terrible.

this decision made me cry so badly. just thinking of losing something so close made me just break down.

but someone told me, 在一段感情里可以随时说牵手，但不可以随时说分手。

谢谢你哦 (:

really thought over after reading the messages that my closed ones sent me. thanks joanne (:

this made me treasure you much much more. (:

2011-06-21T23:21:00.003+08:00

tired shag.. that's what i have to say.

cried again today. i dunno. is not i dun want to do. is really nothing to do. tried to finds things to help but all was rejected. now you can tell me if really dun want to work den work till end of the month and enjoy th one mth hold b4 sch starts.

i dunno, honestly. recently, you have just been siding her so much i feel so inferior. i know i didn't do well for a's but it isn't wat i wanted either. you told her, she didn't do anything at home thus she doesn't deserve entertainment. and because if i enjoy the entertainment, is unfair to her. Therefore, i dun get it too.

everything's revolving around her her and her. i really am tired. really tired. i am also tearing while typing this. i am so sick of everything.

there you are asking me to take a break at end of the month.

earlier b4 you say that, den ask me be more alert. dun nua and just slack away. i really can't do things i want. the crying me is back. ):

coz everything is so messed up even if i shared it, nobody will understand how i really feel.

breaking down period once again ):

2011-06-08T22:20:00.003+08:00

whoa, realise damn long since i last blog. finally blogging coz i am seriously toooooo bored ):

he isn't able to book out this week ):

joanne yang is oversea => nobody to argue with!

honestly, just damn bored. phone is like damn dead. one full day and less than 10 msgs i get. hai. just consistently fall asleep during work some more. oh no!

i sort of miss her actually. at least someone will msg me and talk! haha. now i am like totally out of the world. revolving work home bed sleep! nth at all! argh! totally bored!!!!!!

she's like gone for.... erm... 4days. haha. quiet i have to agree. at least no one keep asking me out. but tooooo quiet. haha. until i am feeling extremely shag everyday. ahaha.

eunice seah! i so want to go sing k soon. realise i really super long nv sing k le ): no one's going with me!!! ):

seriously, i realise i dun have friends. as in, is all hi bye friends. how many friends can i really jus go out and crap. message me anything everyday, hai. can't think of anyone. except my bf of coz.

appearing sociable and having lots of friends.

but, i realise i am not.

nth to do ):

2011-03-16T11:54:00.002+08:00

hai... was just asking my mum if i could go out in the morning. and there it goes.

fri night going out, sat still go out

i also nothing to do during weekend ma

den no need to pei your sister meh. you everyday work den sat dun want to stay at home

silence

but i was thinking. weekday, i seldom can go out for dinner. weekend i cannot go out. den wat's the point. might as well tell me i totally can't go out. suddenly working is much worse than schooling! sucks!

you can bring your sister to library ma. den while she borrow her story book you go read some books also la. den if you want to meet your friends, ask them come library read book tgt lor.

who will want to go!

you all at this age shouldn't waste your time. you all should make use of this holiday to read more. if not you will be like some no knowledge people. ask you everything also dunno.

silence.

in the morning already like that. totally make my feel damn sian. work started and i dun really care. carry on with work... till just now.

want to go out eat lunch?

huh?! so random. so free ar. no things to do meh?

your sister at home alone the whole week leh. you mon to fri work. sat sun go out. also nv pei her. you like that then nth to do. you got think she everyday at home for one week leh. den how bored she will be.

silence. just nice gt things to do den went to do my things (: done, felt that i should go talk things out.

she also dun nid us to pei. i ask her about stuff also kena scold. if you were me you want to go ask her meh?

is the time you ask and the attitude ma. everytime i tell you must bring her out you also listen den forget it. sunday wanted you to leave house tgt with her then in the end you two ownself own target. you never did like when go out pei her go library, den ask her stay there finish come pick her up.

ai yah. i only want to ask if want lunch tgt. dun want then nvm. dun want talk so much.

silence. just walk out and continue to do my stuff...

honestly, i dunno. is not i dun care, but just like that lor. imagine totally nv meet friends at all damn sian one le. hello! after a's till now, i only met choy! and mayb a few others. but were all hi bye (for a little while lar).

I ONLY HAD PROPOER MEAL WITH CHOY. NO ONE ELSE LE LEH.

EUNICE, YOUJING, JOANNE, MIAOLING. TANGGE. ALL NV MEET! HELLO, THEY ALSO MY FRIENDS RIGHT. IS NOT LIKE I GO OUT WITH THEM DEN WASTE TIME.

you think friends are meant for business and not for go out and talk nonsense. You make friends cause you think in th elong run they will find you to print stuff. then wat's the point of making friends. i dun treat my rfiends like that and nv will! i dunno. argh!

2011-03-11T23:34:00.002+08:00

so long since blogged and so many things happen. honestly, sometimes i wonder what's the purpose of a blog. you can't say everything out as ppl will start gossiping about you. but the main point was to be an online diary yet you can spill everything out. realise is kind of contradicting ar. since 14 feb till now, is almost a month. but in this month, it determined many things.

- my future

- my degree

- my life

- my failure

i know it had been one week since i gotten my results. everyone has been telling me not to think so much and just move on... results is not everything etc. but honestly does anyone knows how i really feel? i dunno.

I really am happy for those that did well. But for those that didn't I would also say the usual 'move on' but, for me. 'move on' isn't what i want to hear, it isn't what i want. i dun even know what i want anymore.

BCE/D shit results. i have to agree. cried. once again.

till this moment, i still feel like crying. and i have no idea why. i just feel... sad i guess.

everyone asks me not to cry. but i feel worse. even when i cried out, i have to stop once someone comes into the room. coz i dun want my mum to start saying 'cry for wat, also no use...' cry while i was showering is consider norm. i dun even know why this result affected me so much. but probably it's used to determine many things.

I really am losing it. i even cried in the office today just caused my mum scolded me for the tiniest thing. i have no idea why i am crying so easily, but i just can't help it. I know everyone moved on and continue leading their own lives aft the results. but, i guess is just the opposite for me.

now i realise i am so sensitive to everything that i feel terrible when people just tell me off. dun even have to be scold, just minor things like asking me not to waste my time thinking about the open house and i cried. i am that emotional and i dunno what's going on.

i can't agree you weren't there for me. cause i knew you were. and i really thank you for lending me your shoulder to cry on during results. but, i dunno if i am the one changing and demand more from you. or is it just, i feel that i have always been the one giving in.

I am tired, honestly. I dun mind doing anything for you. even though i am tired, i will try my best to do it for you. but, i dunno. even without choy telling me, i know that sometimes, i wonder if you really do appreciate me. Is a questions that pops in and out of my head once in a while.

Recently, was closer to a sec school friend of my ever since i quarreled. He had been nice to just text me and ask me not to think to much and console me. I dunno why, but when i got my results, the person i want to text at night and complain isn't my close friends. but you. mayb you have been constantly giving me the assurance and aiding me everytime i'm upset. sad to say you weren't there, and you wouldn't be here anytime soon. really must meet up when you're back. missing you isn't a right word, but i know needing you as a friend is indeed what i am thinking.

come back soon k?

choy, i know you seldom come to my blog anymore. but, none the less. i think that things you said yesterday do makes sense actually, really enjoyed. ok, time to sleep.

good night.

2011-02-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

hais, today was supposed to be a happy day but in the end turn out equally shitty. just because of a lie, lyk wts. i dun want to be reminded of what happen today, so not going to blog about it. but, was chatting with hannah via sms, and lyk i told her, my mama was even stricter last time. saying these made many bad memories came back. and i realised these are certain events that will be rmb forever, and so, i shall blog and mayb see what ppl say. is she really being too strict, or is it me being the naughty one.

1) i rmb i was going to watch movie with eunice and junjie. very long ago le. yup. can't rmb what movie, but i rmb we bought the tickets. den suddenly a call from my mama, den i just left the two of them alone to watch. and my ticket was paid but i didn't watch the show. hai. a call, and plans spoilt. screwed

2) used to go kbox with my two kbox kakis - youjing and eunice. rmb, there was this time we went k without her knowing. was singing half way, and once again, her call came and off i go. paid the full amount, but i sang less than half. i guess. hai

3) she confiscated my phone coz the bill exploded. den i managed to find an alternative which i borrowed a phone from delphine. i used my own money to buy the top up card. rmb, she found out that i had the phone in the end. and cause of the phone, she banned me from going the class outing which i had been looking forward to. even kneeling down to beg her doesn't work.

4) all the realtionships that she know was damn screwed. ok cont nxt time (:

2011-02-09T21:52:00.002+08:00

back from japan (: haha. had loads of fun. seriously. haha. but i was sick lyk throughout the whole trip. hai. flu pains etc. ok... let's talk about the the trip (:

Day 1

boarded the plane SQ618 at lyk 1.20am. lol. if i nv rmb wrongly. haha. wanted to not sleep and use the system through the night. but was having a very bad flu and so, no choice. wanted to take a nap but ended up[ sleeping 4h straight ): left with 2h to play with the games. haha. the new system doesn't have sp many games lyk last time. but the amount of movies and songs they offer were damn good. haha. created own playlist and everything. watched ' social network' not very nice, kind of boring. didn't even finish and arrived at osaka (:

met aunt mavis and her husband uncle aoki. haha. ate breakfast at the airport and first stop :

rinku premium outlets (:

haha, was shopping and shopping and shopping. (: bought 1 polo tee, 3 blouse and... tt's all i guess. spent lyk the whole day at the outlet. den we went to check in. after check in, went to eat at this garlic shop. haha. dun eat garlic in singapore, but i can't believe i can just take the whole garlic and eat. haha. plus mama said eating garlic will cure flu fast. so i sort of dun care and just eat. lols. and tt's end of day 1 (:

anyway, hotel room was small. lyk e downtown east chalet (hv to pay 1buck to enter one) hai. none the less, is the room i will spent the whole trip at. (: oh, realised my phone cannot receive the network in japan and i dunno why. plus it ran out of batt on the first day. WORST, i didn't bring my charger. so i didn't hv phone to messgae ):

day 2

went to this osaka castle place where i was terribly sick and didn't go up to the attraction. mama stayed with me and we ate tako yaki (: haha. had lyk 10 in one go. damn fulol. and it was the first time my mama loves tako yaki (she doesn't eat it in sg) lol. but is damn nice unlike sg one, so many flour. went to underwater world next. pretty amazing initially, but gradually become tiring. cause it was dim inside the underwater world. we came to this place where we can sit down and rest. and guess wat, me and my mama fell asleep while sitting. lol. why were we even so tired. i have no idea. LOLs.

den went to visit a temple which was closed by the time we reach there. haha. and went to 天王寺 (tenoji) if i am not wrong. to shop. but we didn't bring passport for tax rebate so we didn't buy. lols. den we went to aunt mavis house. (: nice house. and we ate steamboat! super full but i didn't take pix coz camera was flat. and was too busy eating. hahaha. went back to hotel which was 20min via car ride. oh anyway, asked abt the prices of car, and i realise in jaoan, you can get 2 cars for the same price of a car in sg. SUCKS BIG DAMN

tt's all for now... cont next time... night (:

2011-01-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

quite some time since i last posted har. hai... tired

had family gathering today. bought kite and went to fly, but apparently, the kite flew away. with the string. LOL. long story. nvm

actually, i realise i dunno my mama well. i know is wrong for me to say this and of course i hope no one will see this. but none the less, i really quite upset today. BBQ food came and the driver called me, but i was flying kite so didn't here the vibration. but i was there 5min late. carried the food to bbq pit myself. wasn't very heavy, only one foam box and plastic bag.

when mama see me, ask me why i never ask yipeng/ah kiat they all to help.

all i could say was, everyone playing kite ma. nvm la. also not very heavy

and there she goes, ask me how they can lyk tt. ask me take alone. i dun mind. and it really wasn't very heavy. nvm, forget it. den she starts, we youngsters plan things now halfway one. nv do things properly (cause the safra person ask for receipt. i printed and asked maid to bring coz i forgot initially. in the end, maid nv bring)

i was lyk, walau eh. i prepare things at home nicely tell aunty wat to bring alrdy lor. if i nv do den who do. think of wat to buy and book the pit also we YOUNGSTERS do. ai yah. in the end, the bbq also ok wat. wts

den i realised the kite flew away. and there she goes again. wa lau eh, buy liao nv play den gone. waste money. lalala. den give attitude. sucks

den when kiat all come back den she total change. haha laugh laugh. wat the?! nvm. den say faster eat faster eat. if not ltr no food to eat. why need to lyk tt leh? correct, they eat a larger portion and more. but if no food den muz share/being host, eat lesser la!

say until lyk damn desperate. den me n yipei setting up food, say. dun do la, faster come eat. totally. hai. dunno.

and, things doesn't seem to go well. i dunno. jus screwed. and i dun want to plan anymore. totally shit. plan liao also kena.

forget it. dun want to say anymore. screwed

2011-01-09T01:50:00.002+08:00

oh. i just realised i updated ytd on the class blog, after i deleted the post. SUCKS! NVM. nth much. jus complained about pay and work. and how i started work lyk soon after a's and realise i really didn't meet up with sec sch mates and stuff. hai

went prawning today at night. can't believe prawn-ed 3h for 4 prawns. HAI. and told such a big lie today. but i realise how happy my mama is when i said it. i really dunno. ):

and, i dunno AGAIN! enjoy ur night out? good for you lo. is not lyk i dun want. is can't. somehow once again feel we are drifting away. or is it me having mood swings? i dunno. i dun see you from mon to fri cause we are both working. and being tired, night calls are usually me not answering and i apologise for that. but when i want them, i realise you are occupied with the guys. really feel we are getting further.

so totally missed schooling, cause at least we see each other more often. and spent more time with friends.

jh, i realise you are really pretty right. there's nothing i look forward to. even those night calls i get from you and your butt seems to be lesser. cause i am too tired after work. weekends are for family (decided by my mum). i apparently have no time to go out with friends. life really revolves around work, sleep and nothing else. can't believe i feel lyk crying typin this.

really miss old times ):

2010-11-26T13:20:00.003+08:00

currently at office rotting... feeling rather down. i dunno why. hai

partly cause i'm sick i guess. had been sneezing non stop since... morning!!!! argh. terrible.

was playing with facebook and 'visiting' people. suddenly rmb someone told me you got a gf. so as being a kpo (hehe) went to look at your profile lor. seeing your dp, i had no feelings. just totally numb. i also dunno why. but, i wasn't happy for you even though i always ask you to get one. haha. i feel lyk i just lost a friend. a very close friend. i realise i dun even want to ask you out anymore, cause is just so weird suddenly. i dunno what i m thinking right now. but just...

a's ended on tue... but there was no activity. nothing. wed thur including today, went to mama's office to work. went to catch movie though, but it wasn't nice. so doesn't made any difference. one week of 'rest' (coz i still have to come office once in a while) and i will start working at town. totally dunno what to expect. but i promise and i will make full use of the opportunity there and learn eveything asap. i lyk the sentence mama and yipeng said 'you faster go learn finish, the faster we'l help to get you out'

next tue is btt. so freaking tired. argh. and i haven really study ): dunno. really dunno. life's boring!

parents went europe le. will be back by next sunday. she said she might be extending, and she better be! so she can get stuff back for me. actually i dun even know what i want. and i dunno why i told her i want a dress. haha. no reason.

doing things for no reason
total boredom!!!

2010-11-17T10:34:00.002+08:00

some time since i posted har, and this post isn't something happy. i dunno seriously... what am i in the family. sometimes really sucks to the max. totally screwed. let me just vent everything out today k? even for friends and everything. sorry if i have to say nasty things, but is just not my day. hai

i dunno what's wrong with my mum. seriously. few days ago, she talked about aunt ivy's daughter being lawyers. den the driving centre aunt was calling aunt ivy -- lawyer's mum. all i commented was, my mum dun have such luck to get such capable daughters. i can't be a lawyer cause my language isn't good. i can't be a doctor coz i dun take bio. and really can't be helped. language is a 'since young' thing. den bio was not even taken in sec school. so is really cannot. den all mama said was... i everything also incapable. only capable of getting into relationships and being a kpo(busybody). seriously, thanks la. from sunday till now, all i get is the shit attitude from you. dun even know what the freaking hell to do! totally tearing. ):

baba isn't at home today. coz he went Batam. den the house isn't like house anymore. mama have to stay in the room to watch her show. I am ok with that. but why can't the door be left open?! i dunno. woke up at 10am, coz was really tired. dun even know why. went to her room ask her what she wants to eat. den gimme attitude say go ask sister. went back to room, find sister. also another shit attitude. HELLO! i am not the messenger between you two lo. is lyk what the shit, can't everyone just get out of the stupid room and just talk?! need me to walk here and there to convey message anot. early in the morning and just crap. totally crap!

i wanted to go to vivo and get the bread for yeeyee's house later. now i dun even know if i should go. coz, apparently, if i do, ltr mama say all i am capable of doing these things again. now i seriously dunno what i can do and what can't i. all i know is i can stay upstairs all day and use com all day without having to bother the 2. totally dun feel lyk staying home. but i dun have a choice. ):

ck tang called a few days ago, and said i am accepted, and can report to work. should be a happy thing shouldn't it. but it isn't. coz parents had chosen for me, (at the age of 18) i can't work at ck tang, coz i wouldn't learn anything useful (quoted) So, where am i suppose to go? baba's friend's place to work. where? somewhere at SOTA there. when? asap after a's. pay? dunno, baba said dun nid to pay. but i guess mayb a 5/h. i dunno. can't believe i jus listened to them and give up the freaking ck tang job. ck tang offers 6.80/h on weekdays and 7.80/h on weekends!!!! so much difference! totally just cui. seriously. i can't even work with my friends. dunno.

exams were screwed too.
life's screwed
everything just sucks.
i even have to cry quietly and let tears fall.

sometimes, i really wish someone/something will just take me away and never to be back. ):

2010-11-07T21:15:00.001+08:00

realised i am freaking scared for tml's paper ):

really scared ):

2010-11-01T23:44:00.001+08:00

oh man... 1 week to A's. so tired of it. realise i can't focus at home cause i keep using laptop with broadband. argh... jiu ming ar... at home jus so nua... is lyk will ly on bed and stone. walk here and there. seriously can't focus ): ): ):

and seriously terribly sick. the cough and flu never stops. and worse worse WORSE... my CK Tang job de interview is this thur at orchard! argh. can you believe it?

this thur 11.30am. hai. ZEN ME BAN!!!!! and i haven even recover from my illness ): damn worried i wun get the job sial.

anyway, while typing this post, my space bar button is pissing me off. keep giving off squeaky sound. irritating. hai.

tuition 3 times this week. tue, fri, sun

come on... is the last last stretch. JIA YOU!

2010-10-29T00:16:00.001+08:00

feel terribly shitty.

1. feeling terrible cause i'm sick
2. family / sister

hai. i really dunno sial. sometimes seriously after she had grown up and started to know things, there are so much trouble.

mama just came to tell me, sister told her ' no matter how hard i try. jie jie will always be better. even if she do bad things behind your back, you still regard her as good. '
mama said ' when i was in pri 1 to 5, my good character was not recognise by sister coz she was young. once i stepped into pri6 and sister start to know stuff. i started to become bad. so all she see is me negative stuff. '

her telling me this leaves me thinking, so is my fault for being too good in the past? i dunno. seriously, after sister came i wasn't treated lyk last time anymore. i know mama isn't biased but, is jus so different.

rmb, k2 and pri 2 when i had stage performances during graduation and prize presentation, my whole family never fails to turn up. till p4, when i had performance. that was once, my family didn't even come to watch my performance. i dunno why, though is only a small event. but i rmb it so significantly.

sister's having math retest tml and i am supposed to go through the paper with her. i dun mind. i really dun even though i have loads of things to do. but when i asked her, you wanna go thru. she answered ' let me play a while first la '. i tol dher you'll play till mama come back. i know i should have forced her to sit down and go thru with her. but i know is of no use. she'll only make me pekchek and she wouldn't benefit. argh. i dunno.

now mama drank too much den anyhow emo again. i dunno la. i only know drama is repeating and i seriously hate it. is everyone's fault for things to have happened this way.

mama - cause she was biased (sister)
me - cause i am too smart (sister)
baba - cause he's too bo chap (mother)
baba - cause he's too kpo (sister)
me - cause i never study
me - cause i have too many boyfriends. argh.

i dunno.

sick and pekchek. bad day ): ): ): ): ):

2010-10-23T23:49:00.001+08:00

erm... thanks for the shoe ya. kind of shocked when i see the shoe at my house. i mean... i was lyk wts. i dunno how to descrive. but nvm. hope your asthma is getting better,

take care... and... i duno... the rainbow might not be as bright as you might expect. i mean just in case anything happens. dun pin your hopes to high.

anyway, ben... thanks for the talk. short but nice and (: haha. can't find the word for it. but... really thanks...

'everyone is still learning' everything, communication and adapting to changes.

16 more days to A's
31 more days to life (:

2010-10-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

ok, had a busy day today. did gp mock paper. first time i had 20min to AQ but i realise there's still insufficient time. oh man. essay was hard anyway.

oh, erm. regarding the same matter. i have to say recently there would be fewer calls partly is because i feel weird. and mainly because i have so many things to do and i am seriously very tired. i practically ly on bed den sleep le. so, understand ya. and, erm. get on with life? dun because of these den no mood do this do that. not worth it. life continues the way it is. coz, though it is impt. but life is more than this. so dun think so much. mayb MAYB i emphasise, this may cont till A's are over. coz everyday i really am very tired. so... i can't promise, but i know after A's things will be alot better. yup

has been having consultations with chem, and i realise. actually she isn't that bad. haha.

had chem consultation, gp's next.

OMG 20 more days to geog paper, and i haven start revising. how how how. hai. i need to do geog papers and consult teachers too. omg. ok. no time no time. update soon..

anyway, the gadget is freaking good. jus post and tadah. dun nid to sign in and open browser etc. good (:

2010-10-19T00:04:00.001+08:00

sat was yiyi's wedding (: had great fun lars. but sort of abit teary during the dinner. dunno why sial. when seeing the photo montage abit wet wet, but didn't tear (:

haha, spent so much for her wedding la. all the clothes and shoe. haha...

skirt and top cost ard $60
shoes $23
dress $33

lol. but the dress was super nice lor. haha. took pix with my phone but dun intend to upload coz not nice one. wait till yiyi upload wedding photos ba (: can't wait.

anyway, things happened recently. so bad till i dun even know how to put it here. currently all i have to say is. i need time to chill. i dunno. suddenly everything seems so weird. sorry. really sorry.

and all i want you to do, is stop apologising to me. coz lyk i said, is nobody fault. what you used to tell me was, dun always take the blame. coz sometimes, both are at fault. so, stop apologising. and best to remove things you apologised to me. coz i dunno why, but i get fustrated when i see it. apologies.

2010-10-15T23:09:00.001+08:00

haha, just downloaded this gadget on my laptop and can just post here without opening browser. yeah. hahha.

hadn't been studying for the past 2 days. hai. tml is cousin's wedding. bought new dress shoes, everything. LOLS.

abit scared of the dress ya. hai. what if it drops ): oh no.

bought shoes today. wasn't a good experience. but still ok la. jus need mama to believe that i can wear heels. hai. next time ba.

39 more days to go...

jiayou jiayou jiayou

2010-10-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

i didn't lie to you. sian doesn't equates to sad right? hai...

40 more days and back to the life and routine.

just passed one day and realised is super difficult to endure. argh. know i can't cause trouble/anything because of my own wants. restrict and control is the key.

is jus lyk i'm addicted to drugs and kicking off the habit. will be able to. but, hope i wun kick off till i dun want it anymore. haha. impossible lar.

40 days to go...
40 days to NO 'drugs'
40 days to STOP 'drugs'
40 days to life...

2010-10-13T00:34:00.002+08:00

the rainbow you want to see after A's are not appearing yet. caused it hadn't started raining

what i want to say is... hang in there. Once A's begin, the rain will start. and it gets heavier nearing the end of A's. and when A's ended, the rain stops and sun comes. forming the rainbow you want.

good things are meant to be kept waiting. so... wait for that rainbow to form in another 41 days (:

2010-10-09T11:01:00.002+08:00

heys... is lyk exactly 30 days to my first paper. school seems to be a waste of time and now e low wan yi wans me to go back for chem consultation ): and the worse thing is she made it compulsory sial ): seriously dun wan to go. so freaking waste time. if it starts at 12, i have to leave home at 10.30,and ends at 2... means i will reach home at around 4. wts. half a day wil be gone. argh. i seriously dunno how...

results are back. still failed everything ): but... i dunno. hai. i seriously somehow feel damn tired. hsad been doing math paper 1. thought i was ok... then came 2008 A's paper. super hard. seriously can't do. argh. and i know i hadn't practice enough. hai...... stats is lyk totally dun nid to say. see and stone. jus can't seem to do stats. look at qn also dunno how to do ): math is more or less lyk tt le ):

chem.... hai. totally dunno what to say. so difficult to score plus so much content. hai. really really dunno how ):

geog is worse... hadn't been studying/revising this sub for past 2 yrs. realise gt alot of things to study also. argh! and my 1st paper is geog, followed by chem. ): both killer

econs... hai. my essay seems to be better (: but i know is not goods enough. anyway, can't do csq. hai. dunno how dunno how

2010-10-06T18:40:00.002+08:00

Prelims results r back. Realized everything fail. Even math. When I calculate the score it was an E but turn out to be an S. Hai. appear doesn't care. Actually I realise I do. But I dunno what to say. I feel upset but everyone seems to be doing well. I dunno le. Now family also gt problem den I dun even dare to tell her e results. I dunno.

Cannot lose motivation now. Hai. Seems like I'm faking e attitude to do work. Say I wanna do but actually dun have e heart to. I really dunno hm sia. Is lyk 5 weeks to A's. Wat if I dun make it too. Feel lyk crying but no years cause recently cry too much ): hope things will be better. Really

2010-09-27T22:07:00.002+08:00

I dunno what you are thinking sometimes. Though you might say is only some matters but as your girlfriend I know is more than that. I know there are many things bothering you. Example, results plus my coming birthday. I know is not easy for you as A level approaches yet your results are not up to your expectations.

I dunno why am I apologizing again. I dun even know if it is my fault this time again. I mean I know when I heard you are skipping school I was sian. Super sian cause I didn't expect you to skip the days which I dun want to skip. Mayb because of my sian-ness then you also sian ba. But I really dunno.

You can't expect me to keep hiding my feelings. I know you always think that I dun make decisions for myself. But that isn't the case. I have already decided that since you want to skip den let you be ba. I will just have to go school myself and return home rhen. Jh was telling me to go your house after that but I was thinking, since you have skipped to study den I shouldn't be going to disturb you. So tml most prob you will stay at home and mug very hard k?

I might be bored etc but I will just have to get use to it since the next few weeks will be worse. You just have to do things you want to do. And since I gave you more time to do it. You better do well. Not only well, is extremely well. Best wishes for everything you will be doing and rmb that I will always try my best to be there whenever you need. Take care

2010-09-26T01:33:00.001+08:00

hai... ytd mama started to ask me plans for my birthday... den i realise i totally dunno anything and all i can ans her is dunno dunno. really made me damn sian, coz once again everything is unplan. an di hate last min changes and decisions. so mama and i decided to go out with cousins to eat during sunday breakfast and that's it. totally no mood to celebrate. knowing my friends are planning something but nobody dares to contact my family coz of my parents. hai. totally no mood.

told jh abt it and he asked me not to worry. i chose to believe him. and wasn't wrong. today... they tried contacting my mum. and that place my mood back. but we found out that my sister's finals start on tue, 5 oct. so mama dun allow me to celebrate at home. and joanne asked if i can go out on sat. mama agreed but the curfew is 5pm to 7pm. wts...

i dunno. now is gt mood to celebrate. yet unable to. hai. suddenly, my 18th birthday doesn't seem so great. hmm. wait and see then..

2010-09-17T23:39:00.002+08:00

okay prelims almost done. can't wait for it to be over... coz once over i will go have a day off on wed (:

though i know i still didn't manage to do well this time. but i dunno why but somehow i see an improvement in myself. esp in chem. used to have so much time during paper three coz alot dunno how to do. yet this time i can do but not enough time. hai. pathetic. is my last exam to A's but i am still not doing well. sometimes relaly dunno how sial

is another 20 mins to my cousins birthday and we're celebrating tml (: plus mid autumn festival too (: so long nv celebrate mid autumn festival with cousins at aunt house le. haha. just lyk when i was younger when we all hange aorund the place. haha. so fun lars.

so many countdowns i am looking forward and not loofing forward to...

mid autumn festival celebration --- 1 day
mid autumn festival --- 5 days
my birthday (: --- 16 days
1yr 10mths --- 16 days
a's --- 50 days
after a's --- 80 days? (roughly)

and continuous of fun and enjoyment for 6 mths (: hahahhahaha

but the guys will be going into army ): haha. imagine all botak when come back take a's results. so farni. LOL.

ok... nth to blog about... (:

happy early birthday yipeng! (:

2010-09-09T19:12:00.003+08:00

hai... today was supposed to be a hard core mugging day. indeed, we all mugged, and study...think it benefitted everyone academically. but i dunno. mayb i was just over sensitive. argh, me and my silliness again.

there were so many questions that i am unable to answer. makes me feel terribly dumb and stupid. seriously, the questions you two discuss, none that i know of. already felt lyk at the start. wts. hai

den, ignorance is next. everyone listening to their itouch, with me and my 1st gen nano. whao. this doesn't matter. den with no one hearing me talking, even if i am, my questions are ignored. what to say? mayb i'm too small, thus insignificant.

is not i dun put myself first and think of others before me. is just, i dunno. to me, i doesn't matter, as long as others are happy and achieved what they perceived too. so...though i almost teared on the bus ride home, but i know it was efficient and good for the others. as others have benefitted. i benefit too, by memorising the rxns for alcohols. lol. but mayb there were upsetting moments too.

if you read this i will have many different reactions (mayb, just guesses)
1. you think too much
2. walao eh, why so sensitive
3. now i'm afraid to go out with him
4. wa sian, i'm more stressed. so many boundaries set
5. piak yourself please
6. i dunno what to say
7. dun think so much
8. too busy to bother
9. let her be, she'll be okay in a few days time

this are the few reactions i can predict. even though in front of you appear nth, coz lyk you said. i sian = you sian. den i might as well sian alone and not let you know. sometimes it really feels terrible. i even have to hide my true feelings to you, coz they will affect you, and everything you do.

i dun feel jealous. no. totally. is just pure dumb and dumb. and just feels small and insignificant. sometimes i really wonder if i'm up to the things you think i am able to do. or even if i have the capability to continue...

cause even my mama also says, i gt exam also no diff, coz everytime dun do well. haha. true though.

that's all for the day...

oh, and sorry ben. didn't reply your msg. apologies

2010-09-04T00:28:00.002+08:00

happy 18th birthday leehui (:

haha... seeing you turn 18 tells me i am turning 18 in one month's time (: quite looking forward to it though (: even though i sort of have to worry about my own celebration, hai. i dunno sial... want to celebrate with both family and friends but realised it is so freaking hard to jus achieve one wish of mine ): of course it includes that they are happy... duh

hmm my 18th birthday.. i dunno. suddenly i feel that presents doesn't matter. i just want everyone to gather together and celebrate... i hope... caused everyone is busy wih their stuff and many have start losing contact. lyk miaoling and eunice seah. so long never see or even talk to the both of you. hai... really really want the old times back (: looking forward to it (:

hai... nvm that. anyway, happy 1 yr and 9 mths too (: time passed so fast ya? i thought we really couldn't even last till lyk a year. but now is lyk a year and 9mths... LOL. and is almost to two years. i dunno, but i am really happy that we managed to last till j2 (:

thanks for all the little nice things you have done... (: really appreciate them (:

2010-09-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

hmm. is teachers' day today (: one day of holiday... ahaha. stayed at home the whole day. super guai k? realised i totally wasted e whole day lor. hai

woke up at like 10.30, talk on the phone a while den went back to sleep. wake up talk on phone again den sleep. haha. was lyk 3.30 when i finally really awake. den went to meddle with home the internet and software etc. was doing full scan for com den realise got alot alot of virus. haha. 149. LOL. was telling jh and he's just as shocked. LOL. den shower, went to jp eat pepper lunch. LOL. eat and return... wat's next.. now at home using com again.

haha... didn't even study with prelims this friday. LOL. hai... tat's life... no mood study = no study. haha. saw this thing on facebook. quite cool. it says

study = no fail --- (1)
no study = fail --- (2)
(1) + (2)
study + no study = no fail + fail
study (1 + no) = fail(1 + no)
study = fail (:

hahaha

2010-08-12T19:56:00.002+08:00

nothing nice happened today and i really meant it. nothing. is just another shitty day which i felt totally just shit. nothing goes my way nothing i lyk. totally nothing.

early in the morning kena moses scold. but i do go for a lessons though not all. but compare to them alot more lo. hai dunno why geog teachers jus say they dun see me. nvm

totally screwed up econs test. was going to consult peh later in the day abt that qn. so totally wasted! if i had prepared ytd. nv prepare nvm, i still din read that topic at all. and i really mean nothing. toally no content in my head. till lyk last 15 min to write the essay den use some geog points to anyhow zham.

aft that gp. hai. he talked abt the geog thing again. nvm. den after that be so super sarcastic during lesson. listen alrdy also disgusted sial. hai. den want us to finish the super dumb target setting thing tml. plus essay. DAMN! then he say dun finish dun go his class. wts. wanted to study for chem test during his lesson. den aft searching i realise i left the notes at home. wat's wrong with me lo! totally sian diao. in the end borrowed form shihan. hai. den started to feel super tired during lesson. in the end. something i hated most came. SHIT!

finally half an hour break, but he had reserved for photo taking. hai. so totally wasted my break. thus nv study planning. ): in the end, go inside lecture hall liao do test. also cannot do. hai. only know ues titration method. therefore, again. anyhow zham. hai. in the end press press calculator dunno correct anot den nv write in ans key. in the end go thru ans is correct. WTH! so just not my day.

one hour break was lyk totally nth to do also. practically jus eat and stone, suffering with the dumb cramps. next was geog. finally everyone went for tut aft a very long time. but i was so dozing of fin her lesson. jus really boring plus i din bring the notes. so wondering what she's doing tml ):

math tut was next. jus sat down den realise the pink file i brought to school containing prelim papers were goine. SHIT! thought was in geog classroom. run all the way back to the 3rd storey from 1st to classroom and find. in the end kena kb by the class ppl. ask if gt file under any table, some random stupid guy say have, den took out some empty sandwhich box. and what's next the WHOLE class laugh. make me feel so dumb and paiseh. forget it. ran back to outside general office cause was there with leyi and sharleen before geog. found it and went back to class. so after running, cramps became worse. ):

finally lesson ended, sat someone and talked quite loads of crap den walk around and sat in cafe. but i wanetd to do work, so i went back to study corner alone and sat there to do work. feel so... alone. hai. den finally you ended lesson. thought could share everything with you on the bus ride home, but... we took a car ride from your friend instead. nvm den. guess i was too tired. fell asleep on your friend's car.

changed to bus and wanted to tell you about what i'm doing tml, and all i get is reject reject and reject. hai. i dunno. i know is wrong of me to do so but is really shitty. having cramps, standing in bus, hearing all NOs was the last thing i wanted before the end of the day with you.

came home, so din have appetite to eat. jus drank soup and tt's dinner. cramps still super pain. next is your message. you told me you're moving house. i know is good for you so i can't possibly tell you NO. not voicing out doesn't mean nothing. just totally end my day with A EXTREME SIAN SIAN SIAN. planning my next months i will be going home alone. so cool har?! a new lifestyle mayb. since that will happen next year when you're in army. taking the ride home alone.

now i have to do chem tut, essay, stupid target setting, attend all the useless lessons tml, with extreme bad cramps tml. NO green slip, NO excuses. den what?! i dun even have pills to thong my cramps anymore. so xin ku, but all have to be kept inside. all i can do is tahan tahan and tahan. nothing else since you said no.

start getting used to it girl. jus live life the way it is.

2010-07-11T19:06:00.001+08:00

hai, with BT2 over. i know my results wun be well. practically flung everything. sort of becoming more worried about a's now. frantically finding tuition. but just afradi fo watsing money and get nth in return. how. hai. i relaly feel so helpless sometimes. bring more trouble to family and use mroe money. contribute to much much more expenses to the family. pekchek. forget about that ba. what over is over. look forward.

anyway, i am having a dumb report on gp to do. which i think majority din do lor. hai. damn pathetic. is lykl who the hell will have time to do such a dumb research when bt2 is lyk aft the hols. of coz everyone will rather study for bt can? hai. duno how he thinks sometimes. even though the research will allow us to have more knowledge. but i mean how many of us will relly put in full effort and understand. i dunno. really.

things had been getting rather out of hand. just keeps feeling irritated. hai. sometimes. i dunno if is i losing my temper w/o any reason or did she just does something to piss me off. i tried to contain many. but somehow i will just blow up one day ad berak down and cry. hai. just so many things.

joanne, hope you are fine in school. hear you having so many problems yet i realise i can't do anything. worse still i can't be there for you lyk last time. we will always have to wait till we meet up and tt's when we share stuff. but practically, tt's rare. hai. feel so useless. seriously

had been nua-ing after bt2. jus dun wan to go back to study. there's soccer tonight. i'm thinkin if i want to watch. friday is college day. so gonna find something to do. boring day indeed. miss learning fest suddenly. when we jus go and play enjoy. no school at all. now we have lectures all the way. oh man. hai.

school will start officially again tml. and the workload will increase even more. hope i will really cope and do alot alot better for prelims. if by prelims still unable. i really can prepare to just flung A's le..

no matter what, all the best to all friends taking A's. is the last few months. JIA YOU! JIA YOU! JIA YOU!... and to poly mates. all the best for all your exams too (: really can't wait for A's to end. den guys to go army. den i can meet up with my friends whom i haven met up for a very very very long long long time. just lyk choy. so missed crapping with her.

missed secondary school. and another thing. people are starting to talk about prom. hai. thinking that he ticket will cost a lot. makes me think if i want to go. since is jus dressed nicely and have dinner. and i wun know majority of the people. den might as well gather the class and meet somewhere less fromal. dun nid so xin ku. haha.

2010-06-16T22:21:00.002+08:00

11 more days to BT2. seriously not very prepared. hai. haven even finish revision for one sub. oh man. and even if finish doubt can remember everything. esp chem. oh no!

anyway happy birthday to ng yee yee. you're... 26 alrdy. so old. haha. hope you enjoyed your day despite the rain today(read from fb)

anyway, holidays are lyk passing so fast and really look forward to after exams alrdy. let me enjoy 3days aft bt2 pls. and all i hope for is not to meet parents again. seriously HATE the idea of meeting parents. hai. dunno what to say. but just pray and hope and wish that i will just meet my school's target. hai

anyway so seriously pissed can. anyway jh, is not i dun wan to dote on myself more at home is i can't. lyk right now, jus blogging away only sister alrdy keep ka jiao. making me super pekchek. totally damn sian can. is lyk so f-ed up. den there she say at least she let me use when is suppose to be her time using. lyk wtf. so pekchek and f-ed up till i feel lyk crying. sometimes really damn xin ku.

is not fight over com you know. is jus the way she talks to me is lyk i m the younger wan. so no respect so shitty. jus feels terrible ):

sometimes, really want to grow old soon. den can earn money. get my own com get my own stuff. den dun have to share. den she wun have to keep touching my things and making my things dissappear worse still, spoilt or thrown away.

pissed

2010-05-23T19:48:00.002+08:00

so long never post le and actually realise got nothing much to post about.

june camp is round the corner and i am a gl(a.k.a group leader) LOL. lala pris and candice are gl(s) too (: dunno if it will be fun or will it be lyk e previous wan. hai. and the thought of not being able to shower for one day makes me feel dirty alrdy. can't brush teeth everything. YIKES!

today is sharleen's birthday (: she has always been a great friend (: always so innocent (sometimes act wan) and neutral. never taking sides and always do what benefit everyone. really a role model in class. a soft-hearted girl who gives in easily and NEVER gets angry. haha. and easy to bully of coz (: stilll. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BABE! STAY PRETTY (:

lyk i said school has been fine for me. i know it isn't for everyone. but some things can't be help. maybe you should try to mix with us and not always drift off somewhere alone. even though you might feel out of the clique but at least sought accompaniment? but if you think is not required den, there is really nth much i can do lor.

was reading past post den realise i din talk abt the PMT(parent meet teacher) at all. WTH! thinking of it just makes me angry. the stupid moss crashed my PMT. and blabber so much nonsense. and so unreasonable la. ask me go away den talk to my parents in private! WORSE! he talked about weijie ): hai. so many things to complain after that but can't do so. only can wait till parents go out at night den can talk and complain to friends. still rmb i cried in the car on the way home. hai.

anyway, i got a super super nice econs teacher (: haha. and joker also. but, somehow because of him, i decided to do well for econs and really study to so call pay him back. a really nice teacher. no wonder his students all so close to him. not lyk... moses (eewww)

anyway, tnajunhong. you dun think so much la. nothing of that sort will happen unless.... you dreaming la. hahahah. blehs. you dun think so much can le. people will always have new friends and esp when your current guy friends go into army. they will comfirm have new friends to hang out with. but can't blame them. everyone always need new accompaniment ya (:

and chuaweijie. the whole day, your msgs are sooo slip short ): busy meddling with iTouch, i know. but at least guive nice replies la ): bleh. hope your iTouch is fixed alrdy. and RMB to take track pants from tanjunhong (:

tt's about all ba (:

around 10 more days to 1.5 yrs (:

really treasure you (:

2010-05-07T14:30:00.002+08:00

i am damn bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jh is talking to me on the phone.............but he isn't giving me any ideas to entertain myself ): super bored

oh, had jp morgan ytd. though tiring and i am still feeling tired now. BUT... i can't slp. cause i am in school. oh man. still got gym duty plus 'lessons' till lyk 5. oh man!!!!! really want to die. hai.

met new friend which study at an arts school named yong lim. i think. realise arts school is lyk uni. w/o going thru A level. so is pretty cool. hai. too bored to even blg can? totally sians! hai....

and ate popeyes for consecutive 2 days. like the biscuit with strawberry jam. (:

and jia chuan scare me outside e library.

2010-04-29T20:28:00.003+08:00

29 april already. hai

tml is meet the parent session and duh i kena-ed. but the super farni thing is my parents meeting pe hod. LOL. pe hod. dun even teach me pe. so super random. dunno what's he going to say. my parents were talking about how they were going to deal with the teacher. say is i study also not them if really cannot den expel me lor. LOL. really damn farni. lyk making a whole joke out of it. but i think things will be different when they see my progress report la. haha. fail not borderline but the super super cham kind. LOL.

hmm. sometimes things done really irks me. is just so irritating. i dunno why but sometimes i jus feel fan gan about it. and i will jus blow off. apologies that i can't control my temper. and sometimes my tone sound abit harsh, but that's most probably when i'm pekchek alrdy.

dunno why but have been feeling rather lonely recently. is lyk, when you are having lesson and i am having break, some will go cafe some will go library. but i dun really lyk going to the library and dun wan to go cafe. so i will just wander alone or sit at music corner and do work. pretty sad life actually. bt... doesn't matter, is all ending in less than a yr. and den i can chuck BOOKS aside for half a yr before i start again (provided i make it into uni)

oh, today had chem lect den tangge was sitting behind me. though we din talk, but dunno why had e feeling that someone close is nearby. jus lyk attending lessons back in css. turned over and told tangge, 'missed having lessons tgt' and really meant it. realised how much i missed all my sec sch life and friends. all the gossiping eating hitting sessions. somehow, nobody seems to miss them. everyone seems to be getting along with their new life, at jc, poly or even overseas. the only sec sch friends i am in contact are only the ones in sa, if not den is joanne. miaoling and eunice seem so far away alrdy. even i missed jo and others.

even though i know is impossible to get back all tgt and meet up. but really hope it can happen during chalet before guys have to start going into the army, and girls start to get part time jobs. jus really look forward to a simple gathering where we can meet up again and talk. really really missed the old times.

block test 2 is coming in a month's time. realise i have to start studying alrdy. this weekend will be the starting line and the next weekend too. is jus continuous studying. but camps will be coimng. cca camps are round the corner and ubin is where we will be going. hope the camp wun be a wasted trip and it will be a nice break from all the studying that i must and will be doing. hope what happen at the previous camp wun happen again. really feel lyk enojoying this one as my last commitment to the cca.

3 may is coming soon. and josie de b'day is next. i realise i need to save up for josie de present. haha. and get her a nice mango cake (:

really really treasure you loads. 3 more days to 1yr 5 mths (:

2010-04-22T20:44:00.002+08:00

ok.. so gotten back results. SUCKS EXTREMELY!

FAIL ALL 3 H2 ):
GP PASS
H1 GEOG SUB-PASS

wat the hell man. seriuosly.. how to take A's lyk tt. hai. and so many things have been happening. stupid civics tutor of my class really sucks! cause he say we can't use his name. wat an ass.

hai. seriously dun lyk him to the max but seems lyk eveything we do just can't get him out of the class. really really desperate le.

math and geog is the onyl hope i have. math has always been my stronger aubject. and geog is memorise den ok le. econs is really no hope. jus dun get concepts ): chem is worse. hai. gp... tough. too bad, i got a sucky gp teacher some more. but my tuition teacher is good. seriously. really hope my gp can improve =X

really many things have happened recently. too many till i dunno where to start from and by the time i finish it will be damn late. i shared eveything with my close friends. and sometimes, i jus feel alone. just lyk today. hmm. nvm.

JO, recover from your flu soon ya?
and the same goes to you.

2010-04-15T20:08:00.002+08:00

the last time i blog was lyk super long ago... hai.

so many things happened, block test 1 ended shitty results all back. only gt 15 rank pts. GG. need me parents... hai. sian

pw results out tml. first a lvl grade. hope will either get an A or B. jus hope is wun be lower. really really hope..

shihan's b'dae passed. somehow the things i wanted din turn out fine. but... overall still ok (: she said she was touched and felt lyk crying lol.

had quarrelled a few times this month but can't really rmb any of them. is all minor stuff that we just got over after a day, so nothing much.

changed math and econs teacher. happy with the new econs teacher. but... math.. hmm. super presurising la. is lyk... disciplinary teacher... AGAIN! hai, and she is super strict. totally TOTALLY never smile for the whole tutorial. really serious. not used to it ):

the big secret's out, mama found out i brought guys back when they went overseas, so after a few drama, etc.. everything's fine now (:

weather has been super shitty these few days, was having bad flu for lyk 1 week plus liao and still haven fully recoevr. people around are getting sick or alrdy fell sick. everyone must take care of yourself (:

oh ya, went to watch jurong sec de choir concert last weekend. at art house. near vch. and realise... really miss e choir feeling. really want to go back to choir. jus miss singing so much. ):

so many things i want to do yet so many restrictions. some times really feel lyk breaking free. tried hard but still failed. cause, i am chained, so i can't do much about it. till i get the key to remove them. but i wonder when...

hai.

2010-03-18T16:40:00.003+08:00

Seriously you made me think if I did e wrong thing. I somehow seem to dun receive e consent from you n jh. I know he removed, but I still believe I have e rights to keep it right? Why do I have to always in that sense be e wan to give in? Even before posting, I ask myself if it is too harsh. But after posting, I dun receive the disagreement from you all. Now cause he removed and I din wan to I am being labelled as childish? Thanks lo. Who will have lyk tt to happen. Nobody la! But it did what n comfirm will be awkward. But I tried my very best not to put u guys in e spot. But seems lyk I still din handle it well har. Hai. I also no longer duno wat to say anymore. Mayb should have jus let you guys settled it yourself and kept silent about it. Really feel lyk tearing. SHIT!

2010-03-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

so long nv blog again... hai. erm... things have been getting out of hand i have to say. i dunno how to put it. but is not you aren't respected, is you do things to piss ppl off. it may meant as a form of venting anger. but somehow, clueless ppl will think you are giving attitude. lyk me. i thought you were damn fking siao. jus randomly flare up and give shitty attitude. until i know what happen, den i understand.

long term friends might not have been here for you when you needed them. long term friends spread your troubles. partly coz they treat you as a very close fren. sharing among the few jus to think of a better solution, not even solution. mayb jus spend a day tgt, so those things wun haunt you.

i knew you are feeling troubled lately. but i dunno the content. coz nobody says, as they promised you. so dun always assume that they dun keep secrets. though only know you three for 3 yrs. but i know among the three of you, some things you guys know when can be shared and what can't be shared. and seriously, trust is impt.

things you guys said might have hurt me. i would jus take it, and when i can't i told you guys straight. some might think i am too straight forward or etc. but really. i dun care about what ppl think. as long as i lead my happy life. i dun give a damn even if you call me a bitch, slacker. anything. coz what i show might be one, talk might be the other. but i know i aren't. ignorant you might say.

nothing happy i can think of. only know block test is coming. and really really. not looking forward to it. but, somehow, i feel lyk proving you all wrong. useless and spoilt brat even slacker is not part of me. yet i lack the energy to do so. coz i lost interest.

chatted with a few old friends. missed e old days. selling popsicles in school today. and that made me miss sec sch more. coz walking around the cafe today, trying to find ppl i know to buy. i realise. i dunno anyone. only my class, og, his class. sec sch was nv lyk tt. jus feel kind of... sad

dunno what else to post

jus persevere
jus prove them wrong
jus be myself
jus set my mind and do it
jus strive.

2010-02-19T23:31:00.003+08:00

hey finally came back from China trip during the new year. super long nv blog.

hmmm. january... can't reali rmb anything. orh... weijie's b'dae lo. haha. din get him any present ): only treated him to dinner yup. his present was lyk only bought recently... nice t-shirt tt we went to buy at 313 (:

2 feb... arthas ho b'dae. yup. msged him and told me he going in ns on his b'dae. haha. dunno is sad or happy. haha. earlier go in den earlier enjoy freedom la (:

11 feb... planned a mini hunt for weijie. but.. somehow it failed due to many reasons. nvm. over le. in the end jus gave him the BOX of candies plus, small doggie (: going overseas tml. wee shi han practically wrote a long lists of disc to buy lo. and sam send me a long msg too. haha

12 feb, woke up at lyk 3.00 am to prepare for flight to shenzhen which is at 7. need check in at 5 and the mini van is coming at 4.30 ): msg everyone on the trp to airport and junwen msg me all the way from jurong to changi. LOL. send last msg to treetree den i boarded de plane.

reach there den went shopping. only bought one shirt and one belt which is SUPER LITTLE compare to last time. cause now everywhere selling jacket so.. no point buying. ate at the same hong kong restaurant lo. den see nice shoes but were damn ex ): check in to hotel after that den went for dinner at kfc. haha. supermarket is next and it looks lyk walmart (correct spelling). got all the cooked food place in the trays and ppl jus take what they wan and pay after that. BUT got alot of houseflies. DISGUSTING! bought the dvds that the two girls wan after that. had a long time finding ):

13 feb, travelled to hong kong. haha. quite a cool experience. went to the madame tussauds. took many photos. haha. took transport back to shenzhen ourselves. and is reali reali a new experience. the train was lyk full of ppl. everyone squeezing. practically. shitty. hai. but the mtr in hongkong was good and fast k? mayb can go free and easy in hk nxt time (: oh ya, and is the eve of new year. had a super nice dinner (: with braised goose, pigeon. haha. thought fattening... BUT... super nice k? very long nv had a nice dinner (: =P

14 feb. HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! not forgetting BEN's b'dae!
went to eat nice dim sum in the morning. love the yam paste bo luo bao! (: yummy!
eh... went to guan yin shan. to pray lo. whao. harrible experience. my dad got cheated k?! e temple is on the peak of the mountain so have to take bus and stuff. den dad bought the 2 way tickets BUT, the person say we can't go down. pissed ALL of us off lo! the farni thing is on the way up right. we have to take bus and tram. the queue for tram was super long. and ppl started jumping queue. as there was fence, ppl ard the fence were pissed off and they started shouting at those who jump queue. some even climb over the fence to jump queue. haha. den there was this woman, her husband climbed over. ask her to go. btu all she said was ' i wearing skirt how to climb' LOL everyone ard there laugh lo. ahaha. jokers! but, i conclude that THEY SUCK AT MANAGING EVERYTHING! and it was raining den the boots hurt my feet lyk crazy lo ): but glad everyone manged to make it up and down. (: accomplishment! haha

the night was shopping around the hotel there and bought one gold and white anta jacket. thought in sin anta isn't tt popular. but in china, is lyk the nike in sin. LOL. and i reali damn suay. for the whole trop shirt that i lyk is either the last piece or no size. so in the end only one jacket shirt and belt ): dinner was stemboat. wee... suepr nice super nice. got a lot of zhu1 gan1 and you2 ji4. try figuring out wat it is ba. haha. love the steamboat (:

went for massage at hotel aft tt and packed the baggage and prep to go back sin. haha.

15 feb. went to airport at 9.30 with a shitty attitude driver. realised we were super early. cause the plane goes at 11.50 not 11 ): so. we were SUPER early. haha. worse still. not lyk sin airport. got alot of things to walk. jus bought some food back lo. shu qiang fetch us at airport and brought us back home. after unpack. shower dinner sleep. too tired. hahahaha

16 feb. went to friends house and tour (: recieve hong baos!!!! finally. haha. more to be update nxt time...

mama wan off net and sleep le
oops...
night (:

1 yr 2 mths and 17 days (:

2010-01-09T15:24:00.002+08:00

OH NO OH NO...

STUPID SCHOOL IS STARTING!!!!

GP... NOT DONE AT ALL!!!!
MATH... NOT HERE OR THERE
CHEM... 1 OR 2 QN ONLY!!!!
ECONS... FORGET IT. NV EVEN TAKE OUT AND SEE!!!!

MSA POSTPONED... STH TO BE HAPPY. but... STARTS ON 18 JAN. MEANS WEEKEND NID STUDY. OH MAN!!!!

SCH NOT STARTING LATER.

READ ALL OF MOSES E-MAIL. BUT DUNNO WAT HE TALKING. MESSY MESSY. TIMETABLE SAY MON GOT GP PLUS GEOG. which both work i nv do la. BUT MOSES MAIL US DE LESSON IS UNTIL 2 ONLY. NOW WAT NOW WAT?!?!?!?!?!?!

TOTALLY MESSY!!!!!!

DUN WAN SCHOOL TO START... REALY DUN WAN! ):

NOT WAT, BUT GO BACK OSO NO FUN. PREFER SEC SCH SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH MORE!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-07T12:27:00.003+08:00

hey ben, know i damn long nv update. hahhahaha. update wat, i oso dunno..

sian of school!
dun wan school to start
is not wat... but just damn sian. rather have holidays even though i wun be able to go out often lar.

19 december
celebrated x/mas at my house early lor. den ben jh weijie char came. had great fun la. played wii etc. noisy as usual. and ah ling jie jie became the purple aunty. hahahaha

31 december
countdown at my house lo. shuyi weijie jh joanne zhen came. eh... somehow, ben still din come in the end ): cousins were GREATLY disappointed. hahaha. joanne n zhen went home. leaving jh weijie and shuyi la. stayed over. hahaha. first time can officially stay at my house la. haha. tried heart to heart talk (HTHT) but, failed lar. stupid jh. hahaha. countdown was fun la. super. all the party poppers and stuff. hahahaha.

6 january 2010
rebonded hair. but stinks. REALY STINKY
cost me 80 bucks. but stiill ok. eh... joanne stayed over at my house. hahaha. had talk talk abit. slept at almost 3 la. hahha.a and we went to play golf. most impt went pub. hahahaha. oso nothing wan. sing sing song play play darts see ppl play pool. ya lor. but i nv reply ppls msg. oh oh. nvm. ok jiu hao. hahaha.

7 january 2010
supposed to be doing work now. but i am blogging and joanne is looking

and read moses mail. gt a feelin he copied s25's timetable instead. which is for weijie! damn. i dun wan gp tutorial. if have, i comfirm zhao! dun care say got cramp go home. bleh. earnings all gone. still got 90.70 to claim from mama. waiting for allowance to come.

now joanne oso nua. hahahhaha

nothing to blog le.

hope everything returns to the same.

dun wan school to start. HAI

2009-12-13T18:07:00.003+08:00

come on ppl, no point emo-ing.

ALL READ MY POST AND WILL BE HAPPY.

"time for me to shine" said by a joker.

u will never shine until "it" shines within yourself. You should know what's the "it" referring to.

OKAY, i bet u didn't know what "it" refers to, it's basically your MOOD.

Let's keep this short, becoz i believe in short and sweet. No point nagging and lecturing, we are all grown-ups so i'm sure we know what to do next.

This is not because i have a relationship, it's just within me to stay optimistic. When i was single, i rarely emo for long because i have such great friends revolving around my world. Stayovers and outings, u'll never get to experience it after your NS, seriously serious. So cherish every bit of your youth and u'll find everything just plain "think-too-much symptoms".

This is short and sweet (maybe bitter). I tell u straight in the face, this is not directed only at u TAN JUN HONG. It is also to KHOO SIOK HWEE and LIM JUN HAO.

(Nobody should emo over a festive season) Merry Christmas! Okay wait I should end off by saying something impactful. Here goes, Okay bye.

2009-12-13T15:54:00.005+08:00

sometimes thinkin too much makes you emo, seriously.

drafts doesn't refer to you, it doesn't even mention you at all anymore. i dun even know why i am angry when i am writing this but, nvm. wat i can say is sometimes you thinking too much reali pisses me off.

sorry if i let you mistook me. but, somehow, i still feel that i have my own privacy sometimes. i mean, it was wrong of me to have jus told you my password and stuff, allowing you to access to stuff which i meant to keep only to myself. sometimes, is not i dun trust you, is jus you do things making me not to.

i told you before, no matter who is it, once they are attached, they will comfirm stick with their partners more. i mean, what do you expect. have a boyfriend and leave him alone? tt's ridiculous. sometimes, you must know tt bf does mean more to me. i know is ridiculous to say this, but sometimes, i truly am biase.

also, i have my own time. i mean, i know you need someone to talk to. sometimes i called you but you weren't there too. i mean, you can't always expect me to be there right? i reali dunno how to put it into words and sometimes i think there is no point if your mindset dun change. all i can say is, you have to learn to be independant. reali.

if you manege to find yourself a gf, tt's a different story. but if you still dun. rmb you still hvae friends. even though some of them are attached, they will still try to spend time with you. even though the time might be lesser, but, is because they have to be there for someone else. they dun only have you as a fren, they gt other ppl too. so... reali understand.

and though mean, but i know i have to say it. you have to stop being so emo easily. seriously. no girls would lyk emo guys. if you dun change, is reali hard for someone to appreciate you even though you tried to act ok in front of others.

also, face reality. stop thinking of things that you know it wun be possible. is not tt you can't think, but dun be obsessed. is not worth it. and it will NEVER become reality. you have to move on with reality and start accepting changes. everyone's turning old, everyone's changing. everyone will get their partner some day. you just have to adapt.

if you are going to emo over this for one week or even a month, i got nothing to say. cause what i reali think is everyone has to change for the better. retain the good and change the bad into good. you just have to learn.

2009-12-04T16:07:00.002+08:00

hai, currently in genting de lan shop. LOL. i realised is super ex la. 7.50 per h!!!! not in ringgit le. in sin dollars. wa lau eh, play at timah oso 2 per h only lo. hai. den come lan shop i oso dunno wat to play. bo bian. go surf net. HOPING ppl lyk jh will be online. but in the end le, no one is online la. and worse think is, the net isn't as fast as i expected lo ):

come here waste time. first day here also nv do anything. walk walk e place and eat. hai. den nvm. hai, den got father scold kid tt kind of thing. den sian diao la. all black face. i keep coughing some more ): cough cough. hai. den also nothing much to do lo. eat slp eat slp. den second day liao.

thinkin can go to play theme park today. sian. den e weather super cmi la. cold plus misty lyk shit. den took the cable car ride for fun lo. bo bian. go down to the bottom of the hill liao went to walk walk. haha. walk walk walk... went wan to take the cable car again den close. wat the hell la. den lyk stuck there. dunno how to go up sial. sit there lyk idiot wait for it to open. den finally, someone tell us got shuttle bus downstairs to transport us up. so went down lo.

queue bloody long la. queue till buay tahan in the end 13 ppl took cab. RM10 per pax. tt's lyk $5 per pax la. ex lyk... hai. den some more damn squeezy, three kids sit behind i alrdy squeeze till no seat, three of them still complain complain sial. noisy lyk shit. totally sian lo. the cab so slow some more. slowly crawl. lyk at speed of 20km/h lyk tt la. wth! can't tahan la.

den finally went back, separated from family. sian. den my cab wan all kids some more. wha. cannot take it. bo bian call mama. tis mth bill comfirm cannot tahan wan lo. hai.

cough cough. kip coughing. super BORING LA.

come online nobody
facebook, nth to do
hotmail, checked.
play lan? nah, sian. l4d oso dunno how play. hai. totally nth to do. come here waste time

2009-12-02T16:07:00.002+08:00

2 dec le... one more day to go (: but ad to say i will depart for genting early in the morning tml so wun be able to spend the day with you apologies.

i alrdy inended give sth nice (i hope) when i return. haha. hai. seriously, dun lyk holidays. coz i wun be able to go out. ): not miss sch, coz sch isn't fun isn't nice. majority is placed there jus for show.

hai, mon night asked mama if can go k? den dunno wat happen she lyk 180 degree change lyk tt lo. hai. i nv go work ytd say until i wat, only know how to stay at home and nua etc. but she was the wan who ask me stay at ome e day b4 wat. ai ya, dunno la. jus seem so absurd la...

hai, so many things happen, prom, staying at home alone, hai, nvm

only look forward to me growing up. even though lyk yipei say. grow up doesn't mean can do everything. but at least i can do some stuff on my own. reali look forward to growing up. and of coz tml. (: haha.

2009-11-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

very long nv post le. hai

recently, class had chalet. only went for bbq. was amazed by cheryl. TOTALLY! coz she can explain chua dai di in english. every phrase. even the double triple combi also gt proper phrase. LOL. haha. had two rounds of chua dai di with thanh and sharleen. haha. fun lo. erm, but emo oso la. coz i realised some ppl jus sucks. nvm.

den, 4.3 outing. watched some horror movie. paranomal activity, i think. whao. scare the hell out of me. almost couldn't sleep ytd night lo. but coz too tired so ly down den slp liao. today almost fought. hai. jus so many things happened. but lazy to blog about it. hai. forget it. nvm.

too many things to say
too little time to blog
too tired to talk about them

jus let it be there. drifting... forget it.

2009-11-07T10:41:00.003+08:00

so many things happen, so long nv blog

pw reali sux. though i became closer to chloe and sharleen, however, unhappy things happened along the way. i dun care doesn't mean i dun feel it, i dun know it. but, nvm. forget it. if things wan to be left tis way, den let it be.

tue is OP le. can't wait for it to be over...

KENNETH THAM. endure you enough le. till now, the video is not even here yet. but forget it, anything you do now doesn't matter anymore. coz CHUA WEI JIE from 09s25 has voluntarily help me complete the video with a nice ending even though he is not in MY PW GROUP, NOT EVEN IN MY CLASS. and this jus show SOOOO much effort you wan to put in. forget it. i will never wan to group work with you again IF I CAN CHOOSE!

i dun care about you anymore. you dun wan to put in the effort. you dun wan to practise. you dun wan to go do your Q-card. YOUR PROBLEM. i dun care anymore. say you liao gimme black face. nv convert the video properly den in the moses ask liao you jus sit there and nua. WTH la. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. forget it.

i alrdy dun care le. since you dun even wan to help yourself, i rather put more effort in sharleen and chloe. so, i dun care you le. if you wan to improve on your presentation, you go plead sharleen or chloe see who wan to help you. HMPH

i jus hope my own op will be ok la. moses say i kip eating words. i oso worry. hai. nvm. see how. should do my script ncely (: hahahaha.

2009-10-03T23:38:00.003+08:00

oh ya... 4th oct coming.. and is ALOT ALOT of ppl BIRTHDAY. HAHA

YONG JIAN
DELPHINE
GLADICE
TIFFANY
JIAMIN
RICHARD

i hereby wish you guys advanced birthday and may all your wishes come true.. and grow one year older. haha. (:

2009-10-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

hey, today is my birthday (:

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me..e
happy birthday to me

(:

ahaha... let's update. haha

1 oct
went to sch for post exams activities. early in the morning watch transformers 1. haha i realise is damn nice and damn farni. haha. woo... i wan watch two. borrowed dvd from jh. so gonna watch it ltr (: den gt break and went ard distributing class photos. den got next movie. suppposedly pursuit of happiness. but... BUT... i went to watch transformers AGAIN. haha. and seriously. i think is damn nice lars

josie gave me a lift to go find oonyu after school which i have a super hard time finding lar. haha. den went to find tree tree. haha. damn farni la. the day was practially lyk tt. LOL. thanks oonyu for e preze

2 oct
the day tt i reali looked forward to. coz i know i am having dinner with miaoling they all. haha. went to sch for chapel and sexuality talk, den went to com lab and nua lors. haha. played game and got addicted to bejeweled. haha. damn farni. den tree's class majority came into the lab. haha

aft tt went to find ben den go his house and ocllet my present (: is the action city lamp plis notebook and pencil case. yeah. i got new pencil case liao. haha. happy happy. BEN.. read the note, haha... him him him. cannot say who meh. LOL. but still thanks ALOT ALOT (:

den went home shower and left house again to go for dinner (: took train wit jh ben n tree. jh and ben alighted at raffles coz they need go plaza sing to make my bearbear (: den me and tree went to city hall and had a tough time finding our way to SMU to find his sis to collect his FIXED psp. haha. and i realise he got no sense of direction. haha. dunno routes well. tsk tsk... den took 174 from SMU there to wheelock place and went BORDERS. he wanted to buy ear phones for me. but it cost 53!!! even though he gt 50 dollar de voucher. but i still dun wan. coz i would nv spend so much on ear phones. i mean is not worth it de lo. reali!

walked to taka aft tt to eat seoul garden. i thought we were late alrdy. but in the end leh. we were the first to reach lar. ahaha... tsk tsk. need b'dae girl wait for you all. ai yo. haha. ben and jh came first wit my bearbear. haha. den zhen daniel and edward with 3 bearbear de keychains. haha... thank you for the presents (: eunice and miaoling were next and was damn glad to see them (: while we were makin payment, tangge came. haha. and rayson said he would only be there by 7 in supposedly we were supposed to meet at 6. LOL

started eating lar. and we were comparing the quality of the soup we make. haha. and seriously, me eunice tangge and miaoling did a SUPER DUPER good job ok. haha. the soup was super, and i reali mean., reali nice lors. haha. edward they all wan ... erm... dunno wat to say. zhen tt table wan, let's not even mention. haha. yeah. girls are better (: and finally. rayson came. and he was 2 hours late. arrive only at 8 lars. haha. damn farni. den took pix here and there. on facebook alrdy (:

after dinner, went walkin ard and joanne came. her parents fetch here all the way. damn paiseh. so ma fan. and thanks for the cake joanne yang. reali nice and chocolaty (: haha. good baking skills ar. haha. thanks loads (: cut the cake outside ngee an city den went home wit mama. haha

3 oct
went to toast box at yewtee to celebrate b;dae with yipeng yiyi and yipei. haha. drank the MILO T-REX and is damn full. haha. and we din order alot and we finish all the food lors. 30 dollars worth of food. except the take-away de swiss rolls. haha. orh, and jh de mama. sorry leh. your cake... i din get to eat it. but i reali appreciate you for evrything (: went home aft tt (:

reach home, den baba not in. hmm. i went shower coz weather hot hot. baba came back while i was showering. gave me hongbao (: and told me he bought a cake for my b'dae (: haha. even though i dun reali lyk durian cake i still appreciate (: while we were leavin house, pris called and told me she walkin to my house to pass me preze.haha. i ran out of my house to meet her and she gave me a precious moents de photo frame with me and her de prom pix inside. LOL. look very farni lo. haha. but reali thanks alot for the rouble of walkin here and there leh. shishu was there also (: thanks you two (: went to jp den dian xiao er to eat. haha. and very long nv see my baba so happy liao lo. talk to him alot to day. to me lars. compare to everyday, today was jus different.

came home aft tt and everything went back to the same. everyone doing their own stuff coz we cut the cake b4 we went for dinner. den now leh. i bloggin away lo. i realise i got a lot of wishes

i wan my baba to cheer up and dun so moody easily
i wan to score in my promos
i wan my friends to always be there (:
i wan my current bf to stay wit me till... foreva =P
i wan make a pair of new rings
i wan the guys to finish the last dota game now and slp
i wan mosews not to be my gp teacher nxt year
i wan all my friend family and cousins to have a happy life the coming year till my next b'dae and this wish will be repeated every yr. and may all of you guys de wishes come true (:

and... i wan to thank

weijie
junhong
ben lim
miaoling
eunice
joanne
tangge
daniel
zhen
rayson
edward

for taking time off ytd and spend money to pei me eat seoul garden and celebrate my b'dae. reali thanks alot. and for all the presents i receive from you all too (:

weijie
junhong
peilong
youjing
joanne
pris
zhuorong
JO
oonyu
char
mingruey
zi ming
shuzhen
josie
roland
sam
matthew sia
yong jian

for wishin me happy birthday via msg (: haha. saved every single one of them. haha. so nice of me right (:

and of coz, everyone tt left a msg on my fb wall to wish me happy b'dae... too many to thank alrdy. haha. thanks x 1000000. haha. LOL

of coz my cousins and family lar. haha.

thank you for all the presents and cake and dinner and everything (:

yeah. i am 17... 25 more min and i am officially 17 haha. yeah yeah. one year older. lyk mingruey say... 4 more years to go. wait wait. soon, it will come.

love everyone who wish me happy birthday

love everyone who celebrate my b'dae

love my family and cousins

love my tree tree too (:

2009-09-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

30 SEPTEMBER!!!!

PROMOS ARE OVER!!!!!!

HAHA. DAMN HAPPY, even though i screwed up geog. nah. doesn't matter. expect it anw.

ok... today is my aunt de maid b'dae.... MON was my mama's... and SAT will be mine (:

happy happy. hahaha

hope my promos will do well leh. quite confident in math. dun disappoint me pls.

ok... generally... let's see wat i can blog about.

18 sept
HUANG YI PENG de b'dae lo. haha. went to sch and help the two guys collect their stuff den deliver to them... mail's here. den at night went to k wit the 3 cousins at safra. haha. quite cool ar. touch screen wan. din know. LOL. sang till lyk 2am. oops

23 sept -- 28 sept
promos perios lar. haha. den study and study lor.

GP -- tough. can pass happy liao

Econs -- erm... tried my best? sth lyk tt. but, essay dunno wat to write

Chem -- no time, and dunno how to do. din study detailed enough. WASTED =X

Math -- most confident paper of all. but lost 8 marks. coz dunno how do. stupid prata qn, make me hungry durin exam :(

mon night went to celebrate mama de b'dae by eatin jap buffet at jurong point. haha... quite cool lar... DON DON 123...... and u see ppl from the tables walkin damn quickly to tis spot to collect some special item haha. only gt 20 dishes. damn farni wan. haha

30 sept

today ar.... not a very good day la. shan;t talk much. but... in the end, things stilll worked out (:

lookin forwaqrd to fri. reali

2009-09-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

17 september... hmm

promos start next wed. but i somehow very relax leh.. hai. lyk not scared promos lyk tt. dunno why the scared feelin gone. reali. and i haven reali been hard core studyin lor. there isn't any efficiency at all. weekends come back home not nua, cry. finish nua-ing or cry-ing den will hug doggie and ly on bed. den will tired and jus sleep. dinner's next, go online find chem stuff, surf net abit. tired liao. pack bag, read abit den slp liao. hai... tt's weekdays lor. reali no efficiency

gp
econs
chem
math
geog

gp -- prepare to dun do well de. coz even if do well also wun scorce damn well lyk c or anything. and my overall, moses alrdy fail me. so it doesn't matter

econs -- only manage to finish e first book in the morning today. still got production n cost, mkt structure, mkt failure, macro. hai. so many...

chem -- revision package not done. and of coz, organic chem gt so many things to memorise. sian

math -- most confident paper of all so far. though not very high. coz, i realise i still got unclear de concepts. hai. how how how

geog -- totally is lyk gp. give up more or less. will study la, coz i would still wan to pass the subject. got U throughout e yr leh. even ca also U. hai. duno. see how ba

enought abt promos... tml is yipeng de b'dae...

happy birthday to you first ba... 29 yrs old le hor. old liao. hahahhaa. i will look forward to me being 21, but by then, you will be... 33... haha. old aunty. LOL. heard we going k tml. (: lookin forward to it. coz very long nv k liao lo. yup thanks anyway

oh ya, mama tell me meimei de exam start 2 oct. and i cannot go out coz she still havin exam. how how how. i scared leh. ltr 2nd cannot go out how?! tree. how. if reali cannot go out den how leh?!

hai. aft promos... i decided to learn how to play dota. hahhaa. coz if not see them play always damn sian leh. dunno they click click wat. yar lor. i wan to try and learn. though i think will take foreva la. nvm. there is always a first time. yupyup

nth much to blog abt la. only damn sian coz moses is our gp teacher nxt yr. and he alrdy gave us 4 gp papers from j2 for our dec hol hmk. WTF. now promos haven even end lor. hai. can we seriously write petition or sth. i wan moses out of my life can?! sian

nvm. you guys havin stayover i know. hav fun ba. and happy studying

2009-09-13T11:47:00.000+08:00

ok, the holidays practically ended. and heard dhoby died durin the holidays. -.- you girls still got so many. dun sad over it ar (: everyday was school day for me. haha. had fun the week. though promos are near, but i dun seem to reali scared now. but i know i am studying reali studyin, though nv reali put alot of effort. but, at least i get things done and stuff. yup, quite happy wit myself.

thinkin if tml i should mug at home e whole day or come up wit excuse to find him. hmm. dunno. but most prob i will mug instead ba. coz i know my mummy dun lyk me go out on sunday coz to her, sunday is family day. in which, i stay at study room and study, she and baba stay in their room to watch their dvd, den meimei go tuition. sometimes i reali think is ridiculous. nvm. forget it. jus look forward to being 21 (:

i know it will be soon, coz i am turning 17 in ard 20 days. yup. and from then will only be another 4 yrs. time pass fast. i know. yup. 21 21 21... reali look forward to it.

11 september 2009

ytd....went sch lor. haha. had a nice school day. LOL. shan elaborate much lar.

bought yipeng de b'dae preze. hahaha. though ex but ok lar. 10 to survive e next week. hmm. bring food and prata everyday is all i can afford. yup..

weijie suddenly called me and asked wat shoe size. heard ben in the background " a 6 for converse?! " and a girl saying, ask her her shoe size lor. LOL. ask jh and weijie, but none gimme a ans. mayb i will ask ben. haha. LOL.

at night called jh and had a very nice chat. told him the list of things i wanted and i wrote it on a piece of rough paper and drew many pictures on it. but super ugliy drawn la, haha, and i realise i wan ALOT ALOT of stuff, till the whole piece of paper is full. ahahaha, should list them here (:

1. FIX my hair... no frizzy hair!!!
2. new laptop
3. new phone
4. new pencil case
5. new wallet
6. new shoes -- sneakers and girlgirl de shoe(coz e only pair i hv is spoilt. and no more nice shoe to wear durin ppl de wedding and i dun wan wear the boots, coz too long2 zhong4 le)
7. TV in my room
8. OWN room
9. BETTER sound system. coz now wan spoil. noisy noisy
10. internection connection 24/7, under my own control and not locked in mama room
11. new piano
12. fix my watches--swatch(change strap for both) ; addidas(spoilt)
13. new earphones
14. take up lessons -- singing, baking, dancing, cooking
15. have my own bakery in future!
16. get rid of my tummy ):
17. one BIG BIG bouquet of flowers. i only wan it once in my life. the super super big kind. i think is damn nice the feeling when you receive it. even though i say flowers are useless coz they die and you throw them away aft tt which is reali a waste of money. but i wan to experience e kind of feelin when one receive a very very big bouquet of flowers. haha. tried drawing alot of roses on the paper but in the end turn out sth ugly. LOL. mayb if reali no one give i will go buy one myself. haha.

tt's wat i wan hahahhahahaha. so many things lar. i know i will be gettin a few on my b'dae. hahahahhahahaha.

and we talked about oh ya, how i wan my future house to be lyk. hahaha. damn farni.

- let my kids have their own room, with study table, own com, own bed, small coffee table for water
- balcony
- portable BBQ pit
- nice chairs and tables to sit and talk

n many more la. shant say too much coz is reali alot alot. hahaha...

had a nice chat ytd. LOL.

12 september 2009

celebrated yipeng b'dae at my house today. yup. (: in the morning, mummy woke us up and told us she n baba going eat breakfast with the three sisters, so both me and my sister woke up and tag along,thinkin can go NTUC and walk den dun nid do work. In the end leh, eat some coffee shop at the side. i mean both me and my sister dun mind. den they nv sell milo complain, prata not nice, she jus eat one mouth den dun wan. reali waste food lor. den she complain say the teh not nice tt's why dun lyk to come tis kind of place to eat?!?!?!?!?! is she pass by ownself say here cheaper den eat here wan leh. den in the end complain so much. my dad went to fetch them and came back, so when they come, then they tell them prata not nice. and i will nv forget the sentence she say, "xihui dai4 wo1 lai2 de4". ok lor. nth to say. -.- nvm, finish eating liao ask me and my sis to go home and do work. i was lyk. WTH might as well ask us stay at home and eat breakfast lor, eat and go back. damn sian la. seriously, almost teared.. hai. nvm. oh ya, and both my sister agreed on sth, aft she moved into the house, she seriously start lokkin down on ppl. reali. nvm, i know nobody will believe. but, both me and my sister agree and i shan say wat she said tt made us think tis way. coz i dun wan to hurt anyone.

so in the end went home and do work. not reali lar. do abit den baba left w/o lockin room (: so used com and see phone and stuff till mummy come back. den she buy new dvd player so i have to help her 'install' but i lyk doing it, so is ok (: den my cousin brought UP to watch. i din watch the first part as my mama was lyk, 'you come back so long dunno how to put drinks in the fridge for ltr ar?' den, i jus went down and put lor. and made ribena drink also, coz gt not much drinks at home. yupyup

aft UP, uden watch random show, till my uncle came and bought nice nice muffins to eat. (: i love the chocolate wan. haha. is at tanjong pagar, mayb gt time go see see (: jus love choc. haha. den the few cousin and everyone made a hell lot of noise la. haha. my house very long nv so noisy le lo. yup. den aunt wanted coffee but dun hav, den found this quite cool coffee packet thing and made for her. and more ribena. yupyup. as i carried a vup of ribena out, mama say got bread for me n jus shoved it into my mounth lar, so in the end, instead of eating it, it jus smashed at my face and coz she pushed ma, my hang shake, ribena spilled, nose got cream. XIN KU FEELING ): went to wash face and gt the very creamy smell, dun lyk ):

went IMM aft tt to get some last min stuff and yup, came back and everything started lor. got steamboat, with pig stomach soup (: haha. my fav soup lor. not fav lar. but coz is my aunt cook wan den very nice. yummy. den got cake cutting, got curry got beehoon etc la. but, is nice aft all. alot of ppl came, and reali, my house very long nv so noisy and happy le. so many laughter. LOL

took pix of others, but took one wit yipei. haha. i zi4 pai1 wan LOL. and amazingly, not bad ok. no face cut off or anything. haha.

managed to ask, the three sisters out on my b'dae to yewtee de toastbox to drink the giant milo dinosaur. haha. and i comfirmed tt my b'dae falls on the mid-autumn festival this yr and is a sun some more. reali reali damn happy. haahaha. aunt say she cook for me the soup again den. haha. (:

and practically tt's the end of the day. currently writing it at lyk 11.55pm on 12 sept, yup. can only post it now coz mama dun on the internet so late. ...

O.o, i came up wit more things i want. hahahahaha

18. to create a bear at the 'make-a-bear shop' myself. coz i think the process very fun. ahaha
19. to cook a nice nice meal for him during the dec holiday. jus one nice meal. which is edible of coz. haha

will add in more in the future. haha. tt's all for now. LOL.

whao, wat a long post. hahaha

2009-09-10T17:50:00.002+08:00

SUMMATION AND INDUCTION

SUCKS BIG DAMN!!!!

REALI DUNNO HOW DO LAR.

SEE ANS LIAO STILL DUN UNDERSTAND.

DAMN SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-06T19:22:00.002+08:00

29 august

TAN JUN HONG!!!! you wan me write wan..... so...

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY... and stop suaning me.. i will be 17 soon. =P

2 sept
went for rehearsal for music awards... screwed up... was reali damn scared. dunno why. jh came all the way to sa to pass me and ben de minus one track. in the end dun wan come in. hai yo. in the end come in liao rehearse finish liao. LOLs

den jh went to SAF and play play. and we found out that samuel sim is actually jh de pri sch fren known as wei guang. LOL. oops.

3 sept
9 mths lo (:

went west mall to walk walk for 15 min...
dun fret over my b'dae pls....

4 sept
took part in music awards. hahah in the end din screw up as badly as i thought so.. yep, happy wit it. and i got third some more. haha. din expect. so blur when my name was announced. din hear it, till qingxing say... eh, you lars. haha damn blur. oops... tangge got second (: grace got first.. expected. haha

5 sept
morning went to do work, den afternoon play golf. hai. golf... seriously, no clue why i took it up again. gime myself additional stress only. promos is only 2 weeks away and my mama expect me to spend 3 days out of the week on golf, going down to course and play. lyk. wth. i reli need to study lor. hai

6 sept
early in the morning kena say by mama. say, sister nv wake up on time for tuition is my fault. i was lyk.. hello. is her having tuition leh. and, i asked her slp early liao. she read her harry potter dunno read until what time den my fault. i studied till 12 plus ytd can...

spend the whole day doing math. almost finishin revision package. BUT i realise i got no clue on summation, ap gp, induction, graphin techniques not very good. oh no. lyk tt how take exam sial. hai

2009-08-27T17:06:00.002+08:00

27 august!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW SIA AND CHUA SINWOON. HAHAHA

msa 2 results are back ): n (:

gp -- U -- kind of expected... so. yup. coz i dn finish the paper also. hai
chem -- D -- quite sian over tis. teared ): coz i expected alot beta. in the end realise is coz of one stupid careless mistake which could hav got me a B ):
econs -- D -- expected a D so... ok lar. suppoedly got S, den she remark everyone's papre and i gt D (:
math -- B -- happy wit it, coz when i finish the paper i realise got quite a few mistakes le. oops
geog -- U -- teared over tis also. expected alot beta at least a E or D. coz tis time i reali studied for it but in the end still fail. damn demoralising lor. hai...

total rank point : 42.5

though dun nid to meet parents la. but i realise i am reali in the danger zone of retainin. damn worried. you score a rank point of 75. impressed. i reali feel damn far away from you. is jus, i can nv be on the same path as you. hmm. nvm.

though you volunteered to help me wit my studies, but i reali dun wan you to, coz.. i reali damn scared when you help me wit my studies, yours will deprove. 75 rank point is reali very good. i applause for you. and, as you always wish, your name will be up on the board. must stay there ok?

everyone jia you for the last stretch le. promos coming super soon. reali damn worried i will retain. e confidence i once had is gone again. i am back to the no confidence stage. and i reali dunno how to find it back. coz i realise, studying doesn't help in results. as tis was proven to me thru my geog, which i reali studied hard tis time ):

2009-08-22T19:20:00.000+08:00

22 august lor...

tml is jing kai bdae.(: haven buy his preze yet. oops.
is valerie goh and monica chong b'dae tml as well. hhahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL THREE OF YOU IN ADVANCE (:

hmm, wasted the whole day la. monday woke up at lyk 9 plus den go uncle house to pray... till lyk 12.30 den leave. haha. went to jp to walk walk and sis bought a new bag. oh ya, went to royal sporting house to see the bag i saw at suntec and is lyk more expensive lor. sian. my mummy go suntec buy. she ask me buy le den return her money. haha. was walkin wit my mam n cousin when suddenly i hear someone call me siok siok... and i saw lal, jolene and sam wit ben haha. dey going ben house to do pw. LOL. sam. your voice lyk beta le la. recover soon ya (: den continue walk walk till lyk 3.30 den baba come fetch us den bring mei mei go golf lesson. damn boring dere la. i seriously dun wan to go ...but. nvm. went there to sleep. not in the room. at the golf range. jus sit there and sleep lor. super power. hai. damn tired i guess. now i am home... and later going to jp watch midnight haha. wit parents of coz, dey wun let me go out so late de lar. watchin the laughin gor show. haha

21 aug 2009

ytd was lyk learnin fest day. pretty waste time but i had fun doing the clay thing. my nasi lemak looks nice ok ?? (: tie dye was lyk erm. waste money. i jus pon the thing aft payin. oops. dismiss at lyk 1pm, den went suntec walk walk... haha. went to queensway and met saints there. saw a nice pair of converse shoes but is lyk 75 plus... damn ex.. dun buy for me pls. reali dun wan you spend so much money. jh went to find us dere and went back to css tgt. collected the ugly yearbok and went to play piano. haha. den it was prom meeting (: collected votes and counted and we sort of know whose the finalist le... cool. ahhaa. interview wll be soon i guess. yeah. look forward to the whole pageant comin tgt (: skip dinner coz gt no time to eat. and i forgot to eat medicine for lunch, and since no dinner cannot eat. so... yup... i was coughin tis mornin and kena scold by baba ):

20 aug 2009

erm... had pw lesson and arcery for pe... but i din go for pe. sit there and watch. den... the day went on quite fun-ly. haha. met jh and had a nice chat. haha. and sorry for usin your laptop till no batt. haha. ate KFC n MAC even though i am still havin sore throat. oops. e night was emo.. coz i realise sth. i shouldn't say about it. coz is reali unpleasant. but i have to believe it wun happen, jus lyk wat you say, when you believe it wun, it wun happen...

19 aug 2009

rmb i talk abt golfin till wan cry. hai... tt day duno wat happen, jus damn pekchek coz seriously can't play well. till my coach shake head and say cannot. everyone had such high expectations of me but i am not even improving. deprovin instead ): den i realise i got alot of things on hand. i got to plan for the teachers' day thing, i got to go for prom stuff, pageant proposals, i got the music awards thing comin up...and promos are jus as comin and i know i am not catchin up to e fullest yet... i am reli tired... and i teared... ):

tt's all for the past few days. i realise i gt alot of things undone. i got alot of things to settle...
- teachers' day cake
- teachers' day present -- jelly
- teachers' day gatherin -- attendance, venue, activities, camera stuff, oh no. ):
- junhong's birthday
- prom stuff... interview comin up
- music awards rehearsal tis comin fri
- sch work...
- OG bdae celebration

oh no... oh no... oh no... ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

2009-08-19T12:12:00.002+08:00

18 aug... one week since i last posted

msa 2 passed... lyk mon (:

sun was lyk muggin day... reali mug the whole day till at night den i slack. and junhong asked me to download skype. hahahha. LOL. quite fun leh. but i dun hav a workin mic. sad ): should go get one soon or sth. hahah, den can play liao (:

msa was lyk... so much beta than common test. seriously. haha. but gp was tough din manage to finish, so is lyk... screw. should be failin gp ba... chem math was ok... quite confident of it.. hope it wun burst my bubble =X. math was ok (: got back and i received a B... haha... 17.5 rank points secure... haha,. econs.. no time to finish. could have done better ): geog... better than last time ba... comfirm...i hope. unless my essay skills cannot make it den i gt nth to say. haha

ytd was a tirin day... play golf until wan cry.. will talk more about it next time. got lesson. off i go.... byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-08-13T10:13:00.002+08:00

damn long since i last post. haha.

today.. 13 aug (still sick)
happy birthday weilei.. haha... i still rmb your b'dae ok? LOL. old liao la.... 18 liao... haha...

oh ya, morning ad e shock of the day and tt reali spoil my mood. my sister go set her alarm clock at 5.30? when i am supposed to wake up at 5.50 lar... 20 min is a lot of difference. so.. is the super old kind of clock so.. the ring is lyk damn loud wan. wit the two metal thing at the side... den will sturck.. and i practically jump from the bed. reali shocked. thinkin... oh no.. iziit late alrdy. den i check my phone.... 5.30... i was lyk... wtf.... can't get back to slp lar... den i was lyk... wat the hell... why use this alarm clock all of a sudden. now wan slp oso cannot. can slp for 20 more min de le... damn pissed early in the morning. den when i wan return to sleep. her handphone alarm outside ring... PISSED.... 5.40... argh!!!!! den once again when about to doze of, my alarm rang... 5.50.... oh man... i losst 20 min of slp. has been two days since i could have slept the whole night. keep wakin up in the middle of the night. hai. so... that's e morning. ): and i keep sniffin ):

two girls kena scolded in class early in the mornin durin asembly. hai... wat to do?

12 aug (still sick)
mornig wake up, got lyk 5 mosquitos bites lor. damn pekchek. hai. den wash up and stuff.

had cca la... dunno why also.. so many cca dun hav only ours hv ): but ok la... e new teacher quite nice. yupyup. play captains ball.... lose lyk crazy... practically... THRASH !!!

pe was lyk...ok... but someone din go for pe again lar coz of consultation. in the end kena scold today hai...make the whole class die tgt only lor... play.. CHOOK ball.. if it is spelt lyk tt. quite ok la. coz got play against s10. but... abit hostile ar. dun lyk. haha

erm... wat else... oh ya... had a nice gossip durin chem tut. haha. today(13aug) got chem prac again. haha. is gossip time (:

haha, had math extra tut in air con classroom. haha. damn fun ar... but damn cold. had to wear jacket throughout e half an hour. LOLs

is my jacket lor... doesn't look lyk mine meh? my mama bought it for me when she went china de... ahahaha... is not his lar...

oh ya, used 3 packs of tissue today. so smart ar...

11 aug (started fallin sick)

was ok in the morning.... till math tutorial den kip sneezing. and the sneezing start for the followin days lor ): hai.

took tissue from sharleen and lynn. thanks girls... ssaved my day. ahhaha

2009-08-05T14:53:00.002+08:00

ok... had my second golf lesson. was lyk super rush lar. reach e place den faster go chiong change. den swallow my nasi lemak lyk wat lor. very long nv so rush for time le lar ):

went to the 'florist' wit him and herbin... LOL. realise herbin de chi abit cannot make it ar. LOL. nvm... oops. i see someone coming to find me. hahs

ok... here to continue bloggin after a day... LOL

ytd waas lyk.... hectic lar. hai. cca ended damn late. lyk 7 plus lor ): den baba come fetch me fromm bus stop. the walk there alone was terrible. nvm. shant't explain...but i am safe. so ya... nothin much

reach home at almost 8.45... den shower and eat... until ard 9.20? some where there. den talk on the phone wit jh till 10.... den cont talkin talking to tree till 10.30... coz i love lyin on bed and talk on the phone... so yup. i fell asleep after both phone calls. woke up at 11, and realise my laptop was on. i jus went to turn it off and continue sleeping lar ):

BUT... BUT... i woke up at 1 to do my gp essay lor (: haha. damn proud tt i can wake up. oops. den slept at 3 again. thinkin wake up at 5 to do econs den wash up and off to sch i go... in the end, i woke up at 6.15... so much ltr den e usua time. rush rush rush... so in the end, econs essay weren't done. haha. ms wayne... dunno how to spell, give me extention till tml (: haha

1 to 5... 4h... now is alrdy almost 3.... 2 more h to go (: jia you ar... finishin math tutorial plus assignment le. hha. damn happy (: but, i realise i dunno how do econs essay ): hai. how how how

oh ya, another thing. i realise i have been eating western food for e past 4 days. every single day i spent more than 3 bucks on food. oh no. i am so not goin to eat so much nxt week lor. (:

everything seems to be ok... and, i am in the css prom committe, yeah. equates to can see juniors and peilong, char, junwen they all. HAHA. can't imagine you guys all wearin damn formal stuff. haha. it will be a long time since i last see joanne. so.. i am going to find joanne yang tml (:

oh ya, asked mr ang about golf... but... it doesn't seem to be establish le..... seems quite... lousy. hai... how how how...

tml national day celebration. and worse still, tml still got chem prac after tt ): emo emo emo

oh ya, music awards. how ar... no audition... coz i think too little ppl join liao la...

28 aug -- first rehearsal
2 sept -- second rehearsal
4 sept -- competition... durin assembly... in front of all J1. OMG OMG OMG

damn scared. cannot withdraw leh. how? i feel lyk ponin today. reali damn scared and damn paiseh ):

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2009-07-31T21:10:00.003+08:00

hmm. ok.. got pink slip today = parents have to meet teacher la.

so it isn't sth very good. hai

cried today. dun even know why e bloddy hell i am so sensitive. i dunno. they are jus friends. i keep tellin myself tt, but somehow, some things are jus so not in my control. i tend to think too much. i tend to jus break down and cry knowin the result is dumb. dun even know what i am seriously thinkin sometimes lor.

i am sorry for givin tt shit attitude when you call, but... jus reali felt damn sian and stuff. i know work is impt, but.. i dunno. you gt e weekend to do? i know you will be spendin your weekend wit them, but... organise your time? i dunno.

sometimes i wonder izzit coz you see me too often thus, not treasurin it. whereras seeing someone less often make you feel more qin qie towards them. i am reali not sure. i dun even know wat i am typin. suddenly i am feelin i am typin sth stupid. sth only i understand. but it doesn't matter. no one has to..

ben, sorry for wastin time at your house and chao you jus now. i realise i wasn't of any help to you at all. i dun even know wat to do there. hmm. apologies.

jh, sorry for not reali msg-ing you today. kip sayin ltr, and the ltr nv came... apologies

wj, sorry for the shit attitude. i dunno wat i was doin. mayb i jus...ok. not jus. i over-reacted

delfi, sorry for puttin the things on the table and leave lyk tt. i know tt was mean. i mean, even though i wasn't involve. but if only i took them and pass to you personally. sorry to hurt you in such a way, i reali din mean it

jiachuan, sorry for wakin up you from your slp durin chem lect. since you were slpin and aft i wake you up, u still can ans the qn, i shouldn't hav disturb you. apologies

meimei, sorry for askin you to help me take my phone. i am jus so lazy ya. aplogies

done so many wrong thing today.
done so many things i shouldn't hav done
done so many thrashy things

done things tt dun make sense
done things tt are super dumb
done things tt are stupid

mayb i am jus so dumb, so stupid

but seriously... since you dun wan me to pangseh you, why can you jus pangseh me lyk tt. i dunno why, but... it feels terrible. i know you did apologise, somehow. it doesn't help. coz other stuff bothers me. apologies

2009-07-26T19:22:00.002+08:00

hmm. hope everything will be well from now den.

i din say you gt no right to be angry. u do have, coz... ya. i din say it clearly and stuff
and you oso nv intrude my life or anything wat. hai yo. we are still close friends? one of the closer wan tt stayed wit me since sec 4? so... yup... let this past ya

miss talkin to you in sch you know. see you emo for the two days, din make me feel good either. dun wander ard alone ya. can always find me for accompaniment (:

glad that things are sorted out after all.

treasure the friendship ba.

hope the 1st october top-one thing is still on ya???

siok treasure it. dun blow it jus lyk tt.

2009-07-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

so many things jus happened recently. when for one day i thought nothing bad would happen, no quarrel, nobody emo, etc.. and yet.. it din come true. everyday seems to have ppl ard me emo.. jus coz of me.

i know you are damn pissed wit me, i know you wun even come and read coz u know i will blog to apologise.

i know you have been givin me shoulder for the past two days, and nv listen to my explanation.

i know even if i could only go out for the few hours, i should have asked you first, coz, you asked me out first.

i know i am at wrong

i know i shouldn't hav jus came out w/o tellin you

but, i apologise. i know apologising isn't enough sometimes, but i reali did try. i din mean to hurt you lyk tt. reali

you know i nv ming going out wit you. esp doin somethin i always have interest and enjoy.

i even booked you aft promos to go, showin i reali look forward to us going out tgt.

i reali din mean to lie. reali. but, my parents reali know abt it. i am jus sorry

upteen apologies doesn't help you would say. but, being friends for almost 3 yrs, classmates for almost 3 yrs, i reali hope we would one day return back to the same.

i reali miss talkin to you. is lyk, seeing you emo ard isn't wat i wan. i reali treat u as a close fren, the only few tt i stayed in contact wit. lyk wat you say. seeing you emo makes me feel guilty. terribly guilty. i reali hope to go up to you and apologise. but i jus dun hav the courage to. i msged you tryin to explain, but i dun even receive a reply.

cold shoulder is all i receive from you, for the past two days.

hope everything will be over soon. i know time is required for you to cool down and trust me again. but, i reali din mean it at all.

i wanted to tag your blog to apologise, but aft readin your post, i know you dun wan me to explain. so. nvm.

even if you read the entry, i dun expect you to forgive me. coz i know i was wrong. in some way or another.

and i sincerely apologise for it. reali sorry.

2009-07-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

i realise everything one do affects ppl ard him
dun bother if they are close anot, they will be affected
mayb you think is nothing, but it mean alot to them
it might be good or bad
good, is still ok
but when is bad, u wun realise

sorry guys, i know sometimes i jus do things the way i want it, and not reali bother abt e feelins of those ard me. i reali apologise for makin such remarks and etc tt might have hurt you in some way. i will try to change for the beta, try to think of what i wan to say before i say it, will think of what i am doing is right anot den i do.

reali sorry for everything i hav done so far... i will change.

is a promise i make, and i will do it. i only need time... i dun wan to be the insensible wan anymore ):

2009-07-19T10:18:00.002+08:00

19 july

i once again feel so bored and stuff. of coz la, results were bad and mummy has been nagging, i am jus prayin she doesn't link to... ya. you guys should know lar. i know this time my reaults reali had a tremendous drop. but i promise will improve by msa 2. is a promise i make to myself, and i will achieve it de.

jus read ben's blog. and realise he missed the secondary times too. i think everyone does. i know he will feel weird being in a class full of girls la. coz, the clique used to always stay tgt. though my sec 2 class has lyk 26 girls, but. i dunno, i missed havin more guys in my class? not despo or wat, but... is jus different again. last time sec 2, though many girls but reali was fun. but now... not sayin you girls aren't fun lar. but jus... different.

miss sharing food wit jeremy n edward.
miss giving jh n wj den weird looks when they turn and look at me.
miss hearin bok say qu xi la
miss kop-ing food from shuyi they all
miss the recess times when we will sit wit eunice they all and eat tgt, everyone eatin from same stall
miss joanne, eunice and miaoling always being there for me
miss having jo in front of me and always kick his seat.
miss makin fun of rayson and miaoling
miss the five min breaks tt we always have and ppl walkin ard the classroom, rushin last min work, going to toilet. so many
miss mrs philip's lesson
miss the times when my juniors come see me
miss sitting at the emo corner.
miss giving peilong e dao looks everytime i pass by him
miss going to the piano once in a while
miss the night study times when we would go out and eat, and come back to study
miss the frisbees times
jus so many....

so many memories, though miss faith asked us to create new memories, but... i think is jus better i jus kip to them and rmb them? i dunno. i know everyone's driftin apart. the only wans i meet up now is ben, jh, weijie, joanne, eunice? i dun even see miaoling anywhere. charmaine once in a while. sinwoon when i go back and visit. tt's about all. also nothin much le. i dun have jo's chair to kick. dun hav jeremy to let me whack and make a mess of his hair. dun hav jeremy to listen to my troubles.

jus so much things have drifted away and nv comes back. reali missed the times.

reali feel lyk havin lessons again in sec sch. where the whole class can gather tgt again to spend jus one day havin lessons tgt. i jus asked for tt to happen, but i know it wun be possible. coz e feelin will jus be different. ):

so emo suddenly. hai. nvm. i should continue doing my eom le. and jc life is jus so stressed. everytime i tell ppl abt stuff, i will almost tear. hai. if only my mummy let me go to poly to study, i wun wan to go into jc, leading the way of live i am havin now. so many times i wanted to quit sch but i know after quittin, i wun hav anymore education. i reali dun even know what i reali wan sometimes. i seen to have jus... lose myself.

2009-07-16T21:24:00.002+08:00

ok..i know what's to blog today

definition of priority seats : to let pregnant ladies, old ppl and ppl who need the seat sit

and today can you imagine it, i see a pregnant lady jus standing next to the priority seat and the dumb aunty dun wan let her see. she see new paper den the stupid aunty peep. she finish reading liao den the aunty take hankerchief to cover her face lyk cannot see her lyk tt. wa lau eh. she pregnant for dunno how many mths liao le. stomach so big liao still dun wan let her sit. reali wan ted to go over and... :AUNTY AR... NV SEE PREGNANT LADY IZZIT? OR U PREGNANT OSO" damn pissed wit her action :@

wat else.. results are back

GP : 48/100
chem : 30 plus / 100
math : 41.5 / 100
econs : 28 / 100
geog : should be not good (haven get back)

so... comfirm must meet parent liao
hahahahahahaha... told my mummy le. she say she dun wan go. ask my baba to go. lol... the class too emo liao lar. by the time get math paper, mdm ang was lyk...half the class failed -- meaning ungraded ... and.. everyone was lyk... yeah.. "u" "

nobody nobody but U
we have so many many de U.. haha

2009-07-10T21:10:00.003+08:00

hmm. wat to blog abt?

ok... has reali i have been spending alot of money recently. lyk every day will exceed 5 bucks... must reduce lar.

ok... jh de present is on the track le. things are sort of going well so far. until somebody dun wan put paper properly den write. den messy messy.i wonder who lor.

EoM... oh no, i seriously dunno what article to find. and my pw seriously sucks lar. nobody do anything de lorl hai. sad. see how it goes lar. pray tt it will turn out fine lor. hmm. i know tree's going on fine. good for you and cont improvin ya (:

saw my gp paper 1 today, which is essay la. and i pass by..., half a mark. haha. ok lar. contented i pass. now jus prayin i wun fail compre so tt i will pass gp and kip my 5 rank pts. oh no...

ben has been gettin emo recfently. hai.. cheer up la. i dunno how to help you also. i mean, i dunno what i can do to cheer you up also. only the two guys know you better, dun so emo ya (: muz cheer up (: but, seriously, if you need anyone to talk to in sch... feel free to find me (: quite free durin breaks now. since our breaks are all so different de lor ):

jh oso dun emo la. hai yo. why you two oso emo emo de??? i know the reason but i mean, try to get over it ya, look into future (: dun always emo emo. doessn't solve problems (: cheer up guys

what else.. recently has been startin to listen in class and stuff, coz seriously, i dun wan to scerw up msa2 also. so.. siokhwee... study study study

new econs teacher came in . ms wayn??? dunno how spell la. 'ashley' say she's good but... hmm. her first impression to the class is lyk fail... she only got half an hour wit us. come in, hi... den we greet her. den she tell us she only gt 16 tutorials left b4 promos. den got test nxt tue liao. to prepare us fir lecture test nxt nxt week. dots dots. den aft talkin talkin, left 20 min. thought she would do intro or sth, she ask us to take out paper and do essay. lyk... HUH HUH HUH so sudden de lar. and can see she reali talk VERY fast and QUITE soft. den she also damn skinny lyk going faint anytime. haha. she ask... what's a paragraph.. and i told jolene the ans ' words' coz reali damn sian la. she made the lesson very quiet and boring??? pray hard i dun falll asleep in future...

meet jo today to pass him stuff. ahhaa. had a nice chat wit him. and most prob there will be a 4/3 chalet tis dec. and, most prob jo and i plannin it. if jo dun pangseh me lar. a wan a nice nice de calet leh. i finally know how to ride bike liao den no nice chalet damn sian de leh. ppl, dun lyk tt to me lar. hai yol. dun care. there will be one. and i will make sure got ppl stay for both nights and not say say den go home. haha.

oh ya, why the captain and vice captain of house council is both the s24 ppl? oh man. one is lyk typical bitch face lar. hai dunno la. not my problem. jus find it not fair. when we the commitee got only 5 ppl and my class got three inside and none of them got any post. BULLSHIT

dunno what happen to my sister. had kept scoldin me recently. not bitch den is bastard of not then the f-word. i reali dunno what happen to her. i nv scold her back nv say anythin. jus take it lor., if not ltr say i always argue wit her again. lyk today lar. she msg me ' today go home eat. dinner' den i jus reply ' huh why so sudden de?' and she jus.. 'dun care so much la. jus go home eat and shut up'. i was lyk... huh? why she so hostile. i reali dun understand kids nowadays. i nv kip scoldin her and stuff alrdy much less reali go bother abt her stuff. but i still kena scold. hai. duno wat to do..

ok... i realise i didn't know what to blog abt at first. but i still blogged alot. hahahaha. ok.. tt's all. bye (:

enjoy life to the fullest (:

2009-07-09T14:46:00.002+08:00

erm... seriously, i beginnin to suspect my mum reads the blog. so i am changing add again. mayb jus deletin the blog..

jh lost his phone today. and... he jus got it back from the repair shop two days ago. hai. i reali dunno what to say. but whoever take his phone, jus reurn it to him. i mean, is reali bad if your phone get stolen also right? so... return it to him la. and you must be in his class coz he lost it durin then. how can you bully your classmate lyk tt la. so childish behavior you have lor. you steal ppl de phone, next time your phone will oso get stolen. mayb someone will rob you. not only take your money and valuables, mayb even murder you. bleh. you beta watch your back. you will suffer in future de.

hmm, sch's been boring. i mean, seriously. sch started for only lyk 2 days and i dun feel lyk going to school le lor. i oso dunno why lyk tt. jus damn sian lar. hai.

timetable sucks oso. damn sian. and worse still, gt stinky ppl sittin beside me. damn sian... haha.

i started to listen in tutorials and stuff again, coz i know i did badly for common test. muz reali cont to study, coz i dun wan to get retained. jia you (:

2009-06-28T10:11:00.002+08:00

ok... reali i got almost a week wit no post.. hmm. has been busy lately... yup. exams are lyk tml.. and seriouslu haven start revisin for econs. how how...

math... done, exxceprt functions which simply cannot make it lar.

chem... doing... should be able to finish by exam day ( two days from now) cry

geog... totallly forget it.. will use the one day off to go study..

econs... i can only pray =P

hai. i missed sch food. hahah. i wanna eat the burgers again. LOL. and tml is exam le.. it starts at 10. how am i going to go? take mrt there myself? boring... go find him? tt means i must leave early... oh man..... how how how.. hai, i oso dunno la

oh ya, thanks jh for helpin me train.. haha. aft sleepin and i will increase by 5 lvls. haha. damn farni. and. sch's startin... i hope the flu dun spread... if not got holidays again ): dun lyk holidays coz it means i wun get to see ppl. hmm. hao ba...

oh ya, to the two guys whom i am closest wit and slpin late these days.. slp earlier pls, coz sch is startin, and no more grinding till 2,3 am. yupyup. byes (:

all the best for my exams tml =/

whao, i almost wasted my time to typ this post... dunno wt i click den the post jus disappear w/o being posted. good thing is saved.. hai... okok. byes

2009-06-22T21:13:00.002+08:00

oh no. here i m bloggin again... suddenly jus feel so pekchek and angry... i reali dunno why..

why can't every guy jus always stay loyal to a girl leh? even if you can't jio her must u seriously change target den? wat abt waiting for her? reali big qn in my head lar

and.... common test is lyk next week. but... i haven even finish a single subject lar

is lyk econs first (die) coz somehow even if i studied, i can't ans the essay properly

chem, though i did not bad in the first msa, but is lyk. i haven reali been understanding the recent topics esp the gases thingy and some others la. reali damn worried. i jus wan to maintain the grade, so chem reali must go study wan...

math... is the next paper. always belief tt my math can somehow make it. but the recent test hasn't been giving what i think so. i dunno why, the previous test i jus blank out and can't so well. hail

geog is lyk..forget it de. damn difficult. will try to memorise abit lar. too many stuff to memorise alrdy. hmm

so... this ct...dun reali have confidnce leh. how. and yet i am still wastin time bloggin and stuff. oh no. i should reali shut down the laptop and stop using it or somethin. hai

dunno!!!

2009-06-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

should blog abt chalet next then... haha

mummy asked if i wanted to go down to chalet form airport straight. but i rejected the offer, haha. coz i nv bring phone clothes, etc. so cannot lar. went home to unpack stuff. my whole famiyl went down to the chalet wit me lar. still walk in wit me some more. quite paiseh lar. but...ok lar. at least get to go. haha.

all pangseh me seh. joanne yang nvr even go. miaoling went home early. tangge dun even tell me she nv go.. junjie oso... walau..tel me go second night. when i go there only left lyk 6 ppl. some more all guys. but this wan mummy dunno. oops. =P i told her got lyk 12 ppl 6 girls. if not she wun let me go de. i arrive back at sin den i know left wit such little ppl de. not on purpose to lie. =/ jh was already asleep. edward n ben came to open the door. thanks. zhen and daniel were upstairs playin cards. he went down BUT good thing my mummy didn't see him. haha. went to put my stuff down and shower was the next thing.

after tt everyone slept. left only ben. he went to shower. so there i was talkin to ben...and found out only the bbq succeeded. almost 30 plus ppl came for bbq. 12 stayed. and only 6 were left. hai. worse is...nobody rented bike. ): so ben went shower next and he went to sleep too. hai... at tt time was lyk almost 1 plus only lor. wat to do? coz dinner on the plane was damn sucky, so noth of us went to mac and eat lor. not eat lar. i only drank a cup of tea. den went to walk around the park and went back liao. den off to dreamland we went.

chalet ended damn early. 10.30 check out. den went to eat mac breakfast and everyone went home le. so quite boring lar. seriously... dunno i go down to chalet for wat. so.... threee weeks of the holiday ended.

no studies, no work done yet. how how how. i also dunno. tml going k wit three cousins (: haha. damn look foward to it. hmm. let's hope i will make full use of the last week.i have to. hai yo.

hope wun fail block test 1 ): results were bad for the past short test... i passed... NONE. oh no. beta start jiayou-ing. ok...that's all for the blog today (: will update when i hav stuff to. haha

2009-06-20T19:53:00.002+08:00

hey guys... back from shenzhen trip which lasted from 12 jun to 18 jun

so here's wat i did..................

12 jun
wake up at lyk 4....omg. coz plane was at 7 have to check in at 5. hai. bo bian. but the nice thing is, we took maxi cab there (: haha. big and comfy. cost 57, not bad lar. early in the mornin, mummy took my phone coz worried i send to omuch msg overseas and thus resultin in i hav to pay alot lar. so i didn't even hav a chance to send bye bye msges to my friends. sorry. went to airport and board plane lor. on plane nth to do de. no tv nth. sit blank sleep eat study(abit). reach there already lyk 12plus. shenzhen to hotel another 1h. hai yo. but hotel room not bad lar. quite nice. i slept on the extra bed. and quite hard. but..nvm, is ok... went to eat lunch which sucks. the chicken was lyk... super cannot make it lar. is chewing gum!!!!! damn hard to break everyone give up and tat was the worst meal of all days. ): den parents went to buy golf stuff and book the golf courses. went back to hotel, go eat dinner. the diner was nice. got fried egg wit prawn. though i dun lyk prawn, but i think not bad lar.

13jun
haha. woke up and eat breakfast. breakfast was yummy yummy. haha. i lyk e breakfast coz got zhu gan porridge. haha. and alot of stuff also lar. is shopping day today, so we went to shop shop shop. haha. bought stuff back for friends, and of coz shirts and shorts for myself. haha. bought 3 shirts in total and MANY shorts. meimei bought ipod nano. but seriously...it sucks. haha. coz is the china programme, so everything isn't the same as the real wan. even the games are lyk... cmi. haha. ahaha. den went back to hotel, went out for dinner and sleep le. short day

14jun
supposedly another shopping day but i intend to be guai and stay at hotel to study. lyk omg lar. aft breakfast go back, take out stuff, wait everyone leave and guess what happen. i fell asleep...oops. den finally i woke up lyk 3h ltr. haha. started studyin, quite hav the mood to study until someone text me say dun wan msg me liao, coz overseas damn ex, scared bill bomb. den the study mood disappear. went back to bed and sleep. haaha. so all in all, nv study, coz i only studied for lyk.... half an hour? haha. everyone came back lyk damn early 1 plus. den i found out the two young kids keep complaining they were tired so they jus came back. dots. i realise we still have lyk half a day, so i quit studyin haha. since i haven eaten lunch, i gave excuse that i need to eat and wanted to eat the blueberry eggtarts @ KFC. which is seriously....damn nice. so... i ask everyone to go to the shoppin mall there and shop, and guess wat...everyone went... muahahaha. i am soooo impt. haha

15jun
the two kids whom i share room wit went to golf at lyk 5am, so i hav to wake up and wake them up. was pretty blur when i wake up but i manage to get back to sleep. eat breakfast wit aunt sharon and had a nice chat. go back watch tv and they were back. wanted to go guan yin san suggested by uncle michael, but due to rain. we went downstairs to eat dimsum and went back to sleep. haha. woke up at 5 and went walkin around. we went to buy loads of bread for golf tml. haha. i think this is the day i cried. ): coz my parents keep brushin off the topic when i ask them abt going down for chalet when i return to sin, den of coz, i text him. and he sounded pekchek and dissappointed. so... yeah... teared. hai

16jun
went to golf wit the kids today. and not bad lar. the scenery was damn nice. reali. but it rained halfway. heavy rain some more. and i love the heavy rain. hahahaha. drenched from head to toe. haha. aft that went back to hotel to put stuff and off we go again to guan yin san. it was quite dumb lar. haha. the person tell us from entrance walk to dunno what snow palace(sth lyk snow city) only takes 10 min, so...we took the walkin trail. but the road was freakin steep. reali steep. even worse than the je library that wan. walk until wanna die lor. hai yo. den finally reach the snow place. haha. went in and everyone sat the short ride on ice. the ride was fun. ahha. den take pix of bing diao and stuff. and tt is e only place i took pic. and is lyk 2. haha. no more pix for e whole trip haha. den went to sit bumper car. damn damn fun. i love bumper car. hahha. went for lunch at KFC again. ahaha. went to mssage at night and reali had a good night sleep (: first time i had massage and realise it was quite shu fu lar. skipped dinner coz lunch was late.

17jun
kids went to golf again, and tis time, i didn't wake up. ok lar i did but was damn blur. aft askin them to wake up and send them to their parents room, i went back to sleep. dunno what dream i had lar, but i suddenly wake up adn realise my sis suff nv bring over. took the bag of bread over. close door. saw two bottles sitting on the table, went to refill the bottles and pass it to them. and went back to sleep. all in a blur face. jus manage to fall asleep and doorbell rang. dad passed his room kep to me, and off i went to bed again. haha. kids come back and we went to eat and walk around. aft that went for massage. haha. den had diner and reach back to hotel late. at roughly 10 plus. yup. latest of all days. haha

18jun
is the day i am returning (: and parents hav agreed to the chalet thing :D woke up late and had breakfast. the two kids didn't want to go out, so i went out wit the parents. haha. but the trip out was damn good. coz my dad brought us to this block of shopping. is quite a new experience coz is non-aircon. and only 1level. BUT... the shops are in many rows and the whole building is filled wit shops. bought keychains, shirt for aunt, kappa slippers, my own slippers, and most amazingly, i bought a nice cap. haha. dun even know why i buy. but the front is damn long lar. haha. so quite farni. but the design is nice. haha. and we boarded the plane at lyk 5. and guess wat, e flight was delayed ): but in the still reach sin b4 targetted time. ??? dunno why.

so... yup... my trip ended. haha. abit too long lar. coz towards the end was quite boring. but not bad lar. didn't study for the week ): hmm. die liao lar. ct how? dunno. didn't take much pix oso. first time seh. haha. yup... so this was shenzhen.... the golf trip. haha

2009-06-11T14:15:00.003+08:00

sian, jus kena scolded by mummy when she suddenly returned. hai. i know i was guo fen in bringing food up to eat lar. i shouldn't hav qian jiu to my sister. dunno leh... she still take out ds to play. can't even stop her from doing so.

list of things she did wrongly :

- took out ds to play
- took out her phone
- watch tv in mummy's room
- eat chips
- bring food up to eat
- watch tv e whole day

but i reali cannot do anything abt this. she doesn't listen. but i know one thing tt i could hav prevented, bringing food up. coz i allowed her to. hmm. shouldn't hav. i am such a loser. such a shi bai de sister. can't make her listen to me, now even make mummy angry. reali damn sian. jus so emo suddenly. feel lyk tearin. very long nvr make mummy angry till lyk tt le lor. i suck at everything ):

2009-06-11T10:52:00.002+08:00

ok... 11 june...

3rd june passed... we are officially tgt for lyk half a yr le... press on ya.. (:

i leaving for china tml le. 12 june... and will be back on the 18th. yup... you and jh dun emo la. sound so damn emo lor. hai yo. i also not not comin back. haha. you two take care of one another for a week ok ?? (: cheer up ya....

class chlet will start on 17... i will be back on 18 night. i promise i will go down to chalet no matter how tired i am ok? i will reach sin by 9. so after i reach home unpack etc, should be latest 11.30. tt time den i take train down all the way to pasir ris ya. (: is reali all e way lor., haha. den i will see joanne they all again (: so lookin forward to it...

oh ya, phone bill came... 69.25. oh man... tt means i hav to spend 20 on my bill tis month. hmm. sian diao la. so damn ex. muz start reducing. can wan... siok hwee jia you (:

my two camps were super fun and i look forward to more camps... (:
details... too much to blog abt...

china trip.... do i even reali look forward to it... not reali. coz the disneyland thing most prob is cancel. so they will only be golfing. damn sian. dun even know i go for wat liao lor. hai. out of the three games, i guess i will only be playin one. the other two i will jus stay at hotel alone and rot ba. study... mayb... hai. but i got no one to msg lor. sian. gonna miss tree so much

oooo....my cousin jus jio me to sing k on the 21st (: hhaa. but i intend to go again wit ben and jh on 22nd... how how... hmm. nvm... i'll come up wit sth... hhaa. dunno leh. provided i got money to spare den see how ba

wat else... nth much le lar. my mummy de problem regardin....tree. one step at a time ba. but even if she reali go break us up. i know we will always stay strong and jus wait for approval one day. and btw, weijie counted and he is one yr older than me in terms of lunar calender... haha. damn farni lar. so he isn't the same age. so yeah (: hahhahaha

oh, yipei ar... you sound right. haha. and persevere is one thing i guess. when i grow older, they also rali cant do much le lar. but one step at a atime ba (:

2009-06-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

warm weather today. is jus.... too hot...

had a tired day le lar. den was packin my room and realise i had a lot of useless stuff. threw away ALOT OF THINGS LA.

den, after dinner, since i was free so decided to go jp ntuc wit parents to buy stuff. den coz was damn cold so keep puttin my hand in my pocket. my mummy came over and... your phone very busy hor. but i reali nvr even take out my phone at all. coz they are all busy dining?!

den she... 跟人家讲清楚了吗？and i knew she was referring to him. she didn't approved and i promised her i wun let my resuls drop, she said ok de last time. den now... i reali dunno what she thinking la. i mean...wat's wrong wit havin relationship. is not lyk we anyhow. den she say... dun let me see him if not i will scold him. lyk huh? i reali dunno what to do. den i dun even dare to tell him, coz 好不容易 we thought my mum agreed den things turn out lyk tt. i reali very sian le lar. i reali seriously dunno what to do.

den she say...你和妹妹都以为我做的东西都要害你们这样。how you expect me to ans. i know you are not gettin us into trouble, i know you are helpin us but.... tis kind of thing is lyk tt de ma... den wat...跟同年龄的在一起将来我一定会后悔. i mean future can't be predicted right? i nvr know. but i have a strong feelin tis is something i wun regret coz i know he will always stay wit me.

msg jh, also nvr reply. mayb he did coz my phone not wit me currently. i reali duno how to solve the problem. seeing my cousin, though oso didn't receive approval but coz she is old enough. she dun reali care. she can even celebrate her b'dae wit him and her friends. is reali growing old the best solution to everything? my b'dae will fall on sat oso. but i now i will nvr hav the chance to go out wit friends...much less him. the problem now is.. how are we going to even sustain tt long wit my mum keep being the obstacle? i reali got no idea.

tml onwards, i will have to share my room wit sis. so reali not lookin forwrd to it lor. only a few days not at home and so many of my things have alrdy being touched... took out my harmonica, untie my tie (which i hate to tie), spill serum all over the table makin table oily, touch my laptop... wat the hell is going to happen my things when i share a room wit her. seriously, if i hav the ability to support myself while schoolin, i so wanna rent a place and move out if not, den i have my own room. mayb i am going to rent locker and put my stuff in sch... hmm.

sharing room is a problem
my realtionship is a problem
my results is a problem

so many problem and i am smaller than avg, how to solve them... reali feel lyk ending my life sometimes. feelin damn emo.. i dunno why... i am going to tear soon le lor. i reali hope to turn 21 soon... den i will be able to go out wit him le. reali look forward to it...

but now.. is still 5 yrs away...so long... dun even think it will come soon. solve the problems i hav now first ba. khoo siok hwee... you are such a big loser. so many problems yet you are unable to solve even one. big time sucker.

2009-06-05T18:48:00.003+08:00

tan jun hong. sorry la. was unable to pei you these few days. dun so emo liao lar. cheer up ya. today is your last day of sch le lar. and holiday will start for you next week (:

haha. also, you will be going chalet right??? ya lar. will hav loads of fun during chalet de lar. and you guys oso meetin tml for hardy's b'dae ma... dun so sian diao lar.

reali apologize for not accompanying you these few days. and pls take care of yourself. dun die so easily lar. haha. take care (:

2009-06-03T15:55:00.002+08:00

haha. here i am again.... sian... too bored wat, so playe game in com lab.. lyk everyone else did lar. den i kena caught. damn sian... dunno y so pek chek suddenly lor. jus damn sian diao lar. reali feel f-ed up...

stupid IT man... den i wear pe t-shirt plus skirt wat. den he say. shorts not allow why you where shorts? f la... nvr see properly den come scold scold. wa lau eh. sian leh... i jus pushed my chair behind and.. skrit wat. den he orh ok... walau eh. damn peh chek...

ppl play bejeweled can, i play den cannot. sian diao la. lyk wth. com lab got lyk one big group of ppl, i solo doesn't equate to i hao qi fu ok. damn.... damn pissed... dunno is wait too long wait till pissed or wat la... jus pek chek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he got listening at 4.30 ltr...all the best ba... dun fall asleep again ar... hai yo... i wait until damn sian leh. first time seriously wait so long.... and i mean reali long. 2.30 to 6 leh. omg... not only 1.5 hour i already wan die liao lor. already pek chek till dunno what to say liao ):

i am so goona go out of sch and get batteries mayb get myself a nice cup of bubble tea... but it sucks leh. e milk tea got weird taste..... damn..... dunno

now is dunno i see everyone oso bu shuang or wat... but jus got two bimbos entered the com lab...mayb i am jus too pissed.... apologies...

see lar. suddenly having headache. whao. damn sian liao la. ):

2009-06-03T14:20:00.003+08:00

ok.... currently 2.20.... ohman.... still got so damn long.... damn sian... should blog lyk every hour. haha. so freaking bored lar. rotting away. nth to do ):

sit in com lab blank. hai hai hai................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

i am tt bored... oh man

2009-06-03T10:43:00.002+08:00

why am i even blogging right now? coz i think i juz missed econs by accident. ops. now is camp break, so can blog for a while. haha. im cracking my brain trying to solve the GPP template mess, at the same time i realised our title "21st century breakdown" is the album name for Green Day™. oh my? wat to do... hope it works then.

i juz keep on saying "sian" coz the GPP doesnt work out!!!! sian. (2)sian. (3)sian............ n(sian).
can do binomial oreadi. im craving for lunch now, camp instructors pls give us our lunch... lol.

okay la, time to go off le.. eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat!

2009-06-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

ok...here to blog again... hmm

29 may
last day of sch for the term (: but out gp ct falls on it... sian.. but all in all.. i hope i will be able to pass ba. coz i haven pass even a single gp assigment leh... worried... manage to finish lar.. but quite rush for compre.. essay is lyk forget it de lar.. LOL

30 may
went to batam for a 2D1N trip... haha. woke up at lyk 6... den start preping to leave house... tour guide known as meiling... nice person (: went to play go-kart and paintball... but the paint ball is not paint. is small balls to be shot at... one kena my ear. ): now my ear still hurts. go-kart was ok.... but my shirt got dirtied ): the hotel is nice (: haha. quite spacious (: jus tt the pillow a bit dirty ar... lunch was nice (: haha. dinner was chicken chop... not bad lar... haha. after that went to sing k (: damn long nvr sing k le lor. oh ya... went to buy shirts at lyk 4 plus sin dollars per piece. haha. damn cheap lar. not bad...

31 may
morning breakfast was..... shit... haha. damn nan chi de lar. after that went back to the room and sleep again. haha. den went shopping at mega mall, which i bought slippers (: den lunch was A&W. LOL. after that went to take e ride back which was shit... ari-con spoil... damn stuffy. dunno why the ship keep bumping up and down also, felt lyk vomitting. hai.... slept on the ride of coz... come back den eat dinner... go home shower sleep again.... hai.... bet i grew fatter ):

1jun
had extra lessons today... LOL. full 2h of math. hai... math test result was lyk. cmi... reali cmi lor. zen me ban ne???? hmm... den went to plaza sin to celebrate farewell for de loke.... shi han's idol.. haha. den waited for tree to come lor... manage to get hardy's preze. haha... but didn't get joanne's. and damn sian today coz i jus found out joanne cannot make it for tml de dinner ): totally sian diao... so in the end, everything was cancelled. sorry enuice leh. know you very dissapointed. sorry sorry

and i know my friends plus juniors had chinese o's today... hope you guys had tried your best and all e best for your results (:

and.... tml will be joanne's b'dae... sorry wun be able to celebrate wit you leh.... next time ba ):

2009-05-28T09:29:00.002+08:00

may 28....

tml is fri... and holiday starts (:

today... no sch for me... coz they are having mother tongue exams...while me... stayin at home... slept till almost 9 am...oops...

what happen the past few days...

26 may
geog.. LOL. nothing much go there listen lor. oso nothing farni happened.

econs tut, i nvr do her work again. lol. practically, i sometimes thinks she quite ke lian ar... very few ppl do her work... i think... den is always she sponsor ans de.

chem prac was once again converted to tutorial... hai.. but i bet jolene had fun coling down in chem lab coz the weather was lyk.. terribly hot

math lect... shi han nvr bring notes. haha. almost kena punish. haha. good things we went around and manage to borrow... thus shi han was save.. all thanks to me (: coz we borrowed from my fren's fren. LOL

27 may
morning jus when i reach sch....i receive a call from jolene... feeling weird, i picked up...
jolene : eh, where are you ar
me : jus alighted from car
jolene : ok lor, we wait for you

so random, lyk she usually oso dun wait for me de... den i realise she wasn't waitin for me... she waitin for someone else la. LOL. loser la. thought she so nice sia... sian diao. haha

first two hours was gp.. seriously... totally boring, keep faling asleep. hai hai hai

tutorial chem was ok... i am startin to listen, coz i dun wan do badly for chem... jus pray hard to maintain my A =/

the two hour break did gpp, but first 1.5 hour was me and sharleen's doing... ahhaa. kena chased out of lab twice lar... dun lyk

chem lect was... ok... but a bit boring lar. coz low wan yee went thru in class jus now le. so majority slept... and everyone had the zhong xie look. (quoted from leyi) LOL

what's going to happen, can't be predicted. LOL. i only know tt for those taking their chinese papers today.. all the best ya (:

and... recover from your ulcer soon??? it seems to realy hurt =/

2009-05-25T16:20:00.002+08:00

oh... wat happen today... hmm

loke's last pe lesson... sian... equates to no more slackin if a super strict teacher come in. hai... i think i will start poning pe if it reali gets too harsh. LOL

econs lecture... amazingly...i sort of understand but... i jus can't seems to write essay hai...

math tutorial...the lesson tt seriously made me emo for the day. dun even know y i take it heart. but jus... am i reali tt suck in math? is lyk...i know i didn't score well for summation test coz i reali dunno how to apply to question. but, i dunno.i understand graphing. and i reali know how to do le. and it isn't tt i din't do your work... why i have a feeling tt i being laughed at being suaned upon... i reali dunno. i jus reali can't accept the fact that my math is reali tt lousy...so sort of teared??? but i still laughed and joke ard lyk i treated it as some joke. but jus... i dunno. i guess i seriously took it to heart. hmm

it wan break time... had chao ta prata ): and my replica saw de loke talking to some girl and everyone was lyk... his gf his gf????!?!?!?! after tt shi han's teh ping poured... and all over. haha. i sat veside but didn't kena anything instead, it was le yi who sat opposite kena the most. tt was farni... LOL

gp lesson wan next... switch to pw instead... had a difficult time compiling everyone's gp as somehow, the com's mouse broke down. nvm... den aft tt print the doc... dunno why some stupid geog syllabus came printing out. damn pissed alrdy lar.. but can't show it... nvm.. dunno, i jus find her irrtatin somehow.. lesson eneded half an hour earlier... and 'we' went to consult moses. haha. she kena suan. LOL.

econs tutorial... practically, the classroom was damn freakin hot... and i mean burning... ppl were falling asleep, keep going to washroom, fill water bottle.. etc... jus get too distracted easily... and aft lesson end we had class meeting... woo...

shortly after tt, everyone started leaving, wit many feelin unwell... hai... the weather is jus killing everyone...

thought u would seriously pon your econs lesson and we would be able to go at 4.. but... i know is lyndon's last lesson... so nah. nvm... but jus.. dissapointed?? sth lyk tt... bought waffle and cookies to eat from pop cafe..haha

now currently 4.20, went to com lab to blow air con ( coz the weather is terrible... TERRIBLE!!!!) and blog la... another half an hour to go...and here i am wastin my time, coz i reali nvr bring any work to do... oh man...

jh isn't callin back either... there's no one to entertain me... bored i feel again. why am i always feelin bored? am i too dependable on everyone? oh man....

oh... moses scolded a few of them in the morning for poning security seminar.. good thing i didn't pon lo. almost wanted to. i so wish he would realy shout at us for one more time... den off he will be... nvr to step into our class again...

i dun wan him to be my gp teacher as it doesn't help

pw is still ok, but i somehow feel he isn't puttin in the same effort anymore aft so much happen

ct is worse... i reali wanna change ct.. he keep using he's our ct as reasons to scold us. he sucks..

2009-05-24T19:39:00.003+08:00

first of all... let's reply to tags...

yp : quite ok lar... front quite sian. alomst slept... but some parts quite farni. not bad

junjie : haha... see how lar. mayb i going down... see wat time i reach sin, go home unpack my stuff den i go down.

ben : damn sian lar. how can dun emo... all shit stuff keep happening
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ok... today is another shitty day. jus too shitty.

gpp haven even hand in supposedly due on fri. but coz moses saw ours and he say is cmi, he give us till tml to hand in. and we haven reali do anything. and why the wan he saw cannot... all thanks to someone's miraculous idea. thanks man

seriously... pw sucks... dun pick up calls, dun listen to others opinion, act own your own accord, give ppl attitude lyk u wish, jus do wateva u wan, dun bother abt the other grp members. lyk wth u guys wan lar. i reali damn pissed.

played badminton wit sister jus now. and guess wat, i play until cry. coz i was telling her about the pw thing and i jus cried in the streets. lyk wtf. can't believe it happened...

reali dislike pw. feel lyk tellin moses. but wat's the point, he's another loser. nvm...

jus so terribly tired

reali feel lyk quittin sch again.... oh man.......................................................................................

u know you reali suck...i reali think your sttitude is shit. stop acting big... when u weren't even aren't. and you know your face is damn annoying...reali feel lyk giving it a hard whack everytime i see you now

2009-05-23T20:26:00.002+08:00

hmm... today is...23 may alrdy...

2 june coming le...i wonder wat's going to happpen. hahahaha

hmm... i dunno what to update...have

today went to serangoon jc all the way in the morning to watch the guys soccer last match... even though we lost... but i think the coack is right... as long as we play with dignity and sportsmanship, it doesn't matter even if we lost. yup yup.

meet at 7.45 at kovan mrt... jolene... ytd night tell me not to be late... but i wonder who was... hmm.... haha... den went to eat mac... haha... after the match went to buy tau huey (: a.k.a beancurd. ahahaha. den go do work le lor....

hmm... damn sian.... i dunno why... so wat are the plans for june

30 to 31 june -- batam trip (mayb)
2 to 4 june -- camp
8 to 10 june -- camp
12 to 18 june -- camp

wat am i doin.... i reali very sian suddenly...lyk jus moody... no idea...

oh ya... jh... i didn't dump you ok...i still call you often lor. wa lau... drag me in so indirectly la... haha... LOL. you take care of yourself lar.... dun so emo... muz cheer up (:

oooo... went to watch night at the museum 2 ytd night at jp from 8.40 to 10.20....haha. i didn't lie to my mummu to go ok... i went wit her permission de lor. ahahahaa... was amazed tt she let me go as well (: had fun.... finally saw jeremy after a good long time.... and of coz.. wil nvr miss a chance to whack him lar. but... BUT.... he found reason to not make me whack him... argh... he used tree as his next target ):

hai... saw jun jie ytd oso. haha... and he's in hockey... LOL... so is xuanyu. LOLs

wat else to blog abt? a reali dunno.

jus reali no mood in the night. reali dunno y? hmm

oh ya.. and moses reali suck... after the stupid scolding tt he gave us on wed....thur he can act lyk normal during his gp lesson....all smiles as if nothin happen. lyk WTF. he thinks that we reali forgive him? he can wait forever and tt's nvr going to happen. i will rmb him for life. wat a loser he is.... reali give up.... now everyone jus waits for him to blow up again and there he is... GONE FROM OUR CLASS... 26 WILL FINALLY BE SAVE

PEACE AND HARMONY

NO MOSES

NO SCOLDING

NO LOSER IN CLASS

SO HAPPY W/O HIM

i think i am crazy in some way... oh my.... hai... bored? sian? emo? i dunno... nvm

2009-05-20T11:04:00.001+08:00

ok....may 20...

happy birthday JUN JIE.

yup... what else. blogging in sch com lab. feelin terrible to day lor ): so sick... sort of la. ltr still got cca leh. oh man.... how how how... reali dun feel lyk going... alrdy wanted to take green slip and go home now lor. jus dun feel lyk attending lessons....

but ltr got chem lect.. how how how. i reali dun feel lyk attending gp. cannot sleep, also damn boring. reali jus feel lyk skipping it lar. hai...

reali feel lyk crying again. hai. cry coz i reali damn tired. alomst got late today... hai yo. den wake up liao lyk dead zombie lyk tt. on the way to sch also sleep lor. yawn. am i reali tt tired? or is i keep telling myelf i very tired tt why?? hai...

sometimes things jus doesn't go the way i wan to. dunno leh. jus feel damn demoralised... reason???? no idea...

so many things to catch up during the holidays.... exams are lyk aft june hols and i seriously not coping well. damn scared of math and chem you know. damn scared i wun be able to maintain the standard i did during msa 1. econs is worse. i practically dun listen in lecture at all. how how how

jun eholiday time table are here. oi generally end lesson early.... but tree is ending lessons late and i reali mean late. lyk... i can end at 11 plus he ending at 3 plus.. hmm.

joanne's b'dae is round the corner... how how how... i reali dunno what to do for her. and i doubt my plan will work out lor. hai. i am reali damn sian why my plans are jus rearranged...

i dun lyk things coming unpredicted or last min changes. is jus soooo.... reali duno'

look forward to singing in k soon (:

so long nvr sing... and i reali mean nvr sing... not singing in lyk my house. jus go to k and sing.... i reali miss the singing feeling. choir was alrdy a past. but somehow i missed it. reali.......

but i dun wan to join sa choir. coz sectionals are long and practices end late. currently with a slack cca already...... hmk cannot make it. if join cca with long hours in sch. might as well jus fail my studies lar. hai..........

how how how... i got so many things to do yet so little time. time passses lyk nobody business.

as i am blogging, i am lyk totally expressionless.... and totally no mood for anything........... reali jus feel lyk rotting away in some corner.... how i miss emo corner...

2009-05-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

ok... tt post was crap... wat to update...

hmm. angela's b'dae ytd. hahahah. had fun playing the prank on her ytd. LOL

today went to watch soccer match at vjc... haha. one go watch soccer. the other wan go watch eye-candy... me.... go there blank... hai

made him angry today... hai..i also bad mood for dunno wat reason

update more nxt time
bb

2009-05-19T23:38:00.001+08:00

TAN JUN HONG.....

as promised.... your name on the next post.... ahahahaa....

can see anot?

i write bigger...

TAN JUN HONG !!!!

2009-05-13T09:10:00.002+08:00

hai... can't go for chalet in the end. coz the plane will only be back by 18 june. hai.

how how how... dunno what to do also leh. hm. so looking forwrd to class chalet.. yet this happens. hai. damn seh diao la. reali dun feel lyk going for the trip liao. go le oso not happy lo. hai. go liao. xin also in chalet. so long nvr see joanne they all liao la. why my mummy jus so... hai. i know cannot blame her la. is lyk plane nvr come back on that day cannot blame her right. things are set this way.

i jus whine a bit only den she come tell me wat... i luan fa pi qi ytd. say if reali so xin ku den cancel the whole trip dun go lo. wa lau. my fault again. dunno leh. i know meimei looking forward to it tt's why i agreed to go at first and mummy told me we can be bac on the 17. den now wat? she tell me can only come back on the 18. if is morning still ok... is lyk... night.

i'll only reach sin at lyk 10?? and second night is lyk.. everyone is dead le. so even if i go oso waste my time de lor. hai how how how. dunno la. reali damn sian diao la

not only i sian... he also sian. hai. reali didn't expect things to turn out tis way la. hmm. reali kns. wat to do?

2009-05-11T16:13:00.002+08:00

ok...11 may...

had tuition with pang soon ming today... pray hard he can st least pass all subjects for his mid year.. =/

went out wit tree after two days!!!!

haha... nvr see anyone for two days... not only tree la.... shihan sam joleen all ok???.. LOL. but i miss him e most. =P. hahahahahaha

ok...june holidays are coming and i have made up my decision!!!!

JUNE CAMP ( 8 TO 10 JUNE) -- going... ya
China trip ( 12 to 17 June ) -- GOING...
4/3 CHALET (17 to 19 June) -- GOING...

but... chalet i might not be there on 17.. will try to make way down ya..
i miss e class. haha

(: ok...i got ri de gp paper to do... but seriously dun feel lyk doing. hai. will see abt tt....

2009-05-09T17:07:00.002+08:00

is 9 may le... hmm. i am bored.

june.... june..

got class chalet, got SFC camp, got China trip

SFC camp (8 to 10 june)
China trip ( 12 to 17 june)
class chalet ( 17 to 19 june)

how how how... comfirm ig i go china cannot go class chalet de lor.

den how? but can't possibly not go SFC camp leh.. coz is the camp to choose ex co. argh. i am so luan ):

2009-05-05T16:41:00.001+08:00

i know you nvr drift away. you are still there for me (:

love tree loads

2009-05-05T15:01:00.002+08:00

history repeated, i dunno what to do i dunno what to say, why izzit always lyk tat.

will things reali remain the same? i somehow alrdy fell you are drifting away. i know is wrong to me to even think tis way, but tis is reali how i am feeling.

i duno wat i can do to go back to the same, it has happened. you promised me but somehow, i seriuosly dun feel it. i trust you, i believed you wun go back on your word. but, somehow, i still worry coz some things jus isn't us that can decide.

mayb u are jus busy and i think too much. but. i dunno. i feel ignored today ):

2009-05-02T19:48:00.002+08:00

whao, how the hell do i multi task... i imagine. mayb i got twin or sth.. haha.

ok... now seriously.. is a few more hours to 5 mths (:
time so passes ya. but how come it doesnt seems 5mths??
even eunice says so... haha

ok... eunice... how how how... haha. i know you damn hard to come up wit a decision... but do wat you think is right...haha. and all the best for the two ex co positios that you will be running for (:

wat else.. ok.. mummy went overseas again. but is lyk... got into so much troble. she called back twice and twice i wasn't at home. hai. hope i wun get scolded... pray

wat else.. hai... i dunno wat else.

2009-05-02T18:15:00.004+08:00

wow it has been long since i last posted. things hadnt change i see, nobody tagged and everytime i come to this blog, it is still the same as e previous time i came, and e previous previous time, and the previous previous previous time, so on and so forth till Nth terms.

well it is 6.16pm now, 5 hours and 44mins more to May 3, 2009. a BIG 5 months so far, and more to go :) give u a big hi-5 "piak!"

oh im playing badminton with my sis and my cousin outside my hse now, and how do i possibly blog now? answer is tt I can actually multi-task, yup tts rite multi-task. kk here comes the shuttlecock, time to return the shot using "taiji shot" or "left but not left shot" learnt from the drama mama ping pong show. hav a good weekend ahead, goodbye.

2009-04-21T09:35:00.002+08:00

YES! I can do this, i have met all kinds of obstacles and this is juz one of them, which i will overcome shortly.

PI is to be handed up next week, and i think i noe wat to do liao. no worries, i've got my own ways to solve this. NO MORE EMO-ING or BREAKING DOWN, coz tts e old Siok.

I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

CAN MAKE IT. CAN MAKE IT. CAN MAKE IT.